meltdowns are hell. cant think or stop panicking and panic about panicking and not being able to do things or handle stuff. sensory hell, feel the need to escape my body and feel totally overwhelmed and hopeless every time even tho i know it is finite
tips in general for making them less horrible or preventing or if anyone just wants to reassure me bc it sucks and my own body and brain feel like hell and im actively trying to like myself and work with myself more and my body and brain but it is hard af? i feel like ive figured out some of my limits and stuff that helps to prevent and have been safer during them bc now i just cry a lot and scream into stuff and move my arms a lot bc before i wanted to contain it as much as possible so id hurt myself and it was dangerous, i cannot afford to care about being embarrassed anymore
or in general support groups or places to talk to other autistic people? talking to friends has helped and seeing videos ppl make about autistic experiences and going down wholesome supportive comment rabbitholes on autism videos. a support group would be so rad, but idk how to get help it feels like my therapist doesnt even fully understand a lot of what im going through but he understands more of the neurodivergeant experience i have than other doctors have, mayb bc of overlap with ADHD
idk i just want to not hate living and meltdowns make shit so hard recently but its also probably just my body begging me to take a break and get away from stress bc it is too much but i want to be able to do shit anyway and i cant
advice? reassursnce? i feel so broken aaaaaa but it has been getting easier i think as i learn about myself more, i just have repressed sm and been mentally ill for so long and struggling and idk im so tired and feel broken and need more sources ot support so im not crying and screaming and shaking until i run out of panic, probably is annoying af for anyone around me (ik it is sometimes at least ! and makes me feel worse bc i Also want to not be panicking and cannot stop)