Overthinking: Generally...I’m completely average. I don’t excel at anything and I don’t often try things I know I would fail at. I can sing in tune, but not well I can dance with rhythm, but not with style I’m physically creative, but only with inspirationI can play guitar, but not barre chords I do my job, just as well as anyone else
You catch my drift...I have spent a long time trying to come to terms with this. I push and push myself because I so desperately don’t want to be rubbish at something. I strive for perfection knowing I will never reach it. I watch people at work who are effortlessly wonderful at what they do. They just get it! I have to work hard to get it. Doesn’t seem fair does it? But as I’ve got older I no longer give the same level of shit. I’ve accepted I can’t change this and although I’m not ok with it I live with it. However my stupid overactive brain doesn’t give up that easily so this thought process reoccurs every day: Me: You are not very good at things. Me: You will die before long and it won’t matter. Me: yes but it matters now because I want to be the bestAlso me: stop being a dick and enjoy your life.
Task for 2021 - stop being a dick and enjoy my life! Can I get a hell yeah?