ill fall asleep on my back then have a recurring dream about how i become so paranoid about losing my grip on reality that i lose my grip on reality and become inconsolable and unsociable to the point that im put in an isolated psych ward situation in an all dark room on like?? a rusty metal ship?? where my rooms below sea level?? and im sobbing and screaming the whole time because im so terrified about my perception of reality until i finally calm down enough the doctors r like ok u can leave again but were gonna monitor you so my friends and or family (not consistently represented by people i actually know) come to get me and when they visit me im struggling to adjust because at different levels on the ship there are different air pressures so im breathing really heavy and in my last moments in my room before i go i am trying to not be so scared i cant leave the bed and turn on the lights but when i finally turn them on they dont work so i just lay back down and be scared and then i wake myself up an hour after i fell asleep.
