"The Beautifully Grim"- by BT 2020 photo by BT 2022.
At times I cling to, attach myself to, what causes me pain and get desperate to kiss my trauma. As if it's showing me affection but yet I resent it and have an uncontrollable urge to attack it and hurt. At times, more than most, I have been the breaker of my own heart
Currently writing the manuscript to tell my story from NYC delinquency. To an aspiring career in veterinarian medicine. Then an exceptional 15 year duty as an Airborne Ranger and Special Forces Green Beret. Suddenly to years of incarceration and loosing damn near everything. Being thrown back into a world strange and beautiful having to find self and purpose. Innocent childhood and rebellious youth. Falling in love and finding hate. A compassionate and humane lively hood and a violent numbing occupation. Desperation for love, romance and stability but purging on the darkside of impulsive behaviours and hazardous risks. A story of war and armed conflict transitioning to the battlefield that is incarceration. Being controlled by isolation and fears to an awaking of self on the rise journeying down my intended path. Death, grief, drugs,alcohol, sex, romance, desire, firefights, marriage, fatherhood and family. Including my pieces of poetry I wrote through the years which also act like a timeline of trauma. - BT