Jul 1
once again questioning everything about my life 😁😁
#because i'm sick... again...#what if you build your identity on *doing* things#what if you build your identity on achieving and learning and being skillful and able to perform well#but your body is suffering and you often have to stop and take care of it and you never learned how?? while feeling like#you have lost your ego completely?? because if you don't *do* you don't exist?#what then.#out of my intense dysphoria i have tied my identity and my queer masculinity with dance. and i just got very sick. and i'll need a surgery#all while possibly recuperating with my transphobic family. i feel like shooting myself. i feel like shooting myself#txt