#because knowing me

[jamiessecretoh]

the name you choose as a thirteen year old on the internet will be the only constant in your life. Lovers will leave you. Friends will disgrace you. Family will betray you but jams is forever

[beijaflora]

  gonna toss out a dreamscape starter call for (1) purple crime princess. i’ll cap at ...5 for now. while Shaundi’s life isn’t exactly all sunshine and rainbows. she does have some happy memories and dreams but keep in mind, most of the ones involving the crime aspect and her time with the Saints won’t be shown to everybody.

[loversstay]

guess who’s gonna have glitter on her face and in her eyes for this tour

[dontmakemehuntyoudown]

[despite a really bad breakdown i had earlier, i think i’m feeling at least a little bit better?

it might just be that it’s 1:35 am right now and so i’m really out of it, and after i start getting ready for bed and try to sleep i’ll probably end up having more intrusive thoughts again, but i think i’m feeling a little bit better and so if it keeps up

i might try to be around here tomorrow

i’m still not in the greatest of places/states of mind, but it’s a little better than it was before and idk i think trying to do stuff here might help keep my mind off stuff a little bit]

[petercapalldii]

maydayparadeghosts replied to your post:i’m so sleepy but i only have 300 words left on...

When does the essay need to be in?

It's due tomorrow night at 11:45pm. But I was hoping to get it all done now because I have work tomorrow as well!!!

[hailtothepumpkinqueen]

*makes a list of everything she's bringing to Mechacon so she won't forget*

[amessofaheart]

He came home drunk and kept me up the whole night... I'm really tired... I'm tired of having to keep up this facade that I'm strong. I'm tired of having to do all these things a girl my age shouldn't have to worry about... 

My cousin's right. As long as I'm not sure that my brother is going to be safe if I leave, I'm not ever going to want to leave. I'd be too afraid to leave him behind on his own... I just want a hug... I want to go to sleep and not wake up.. I'm really tired of all this bullshit... 

I was tempted. I was tempted a few weeks back to drink the bottle you had in the back. Just to see what was so great about it. I took a sip. I was alone. There was no one around. Everyone was busy. It was 3am and I wasn't speaking to anyone. You guys weren't home and my brother was off with a friend. I took a sip and the moment I tasted the alcohol, I spit it out and I was so ashamed of myself for even thinking about it. 

For even letting myself almost become like you. For even thinking about it for a moment. Where are you, mum? Where are you when I need you so damn much. I've been doing this since I was 7. Taking my brother and locking him in his room and putting up with all this bullshit.. I'm exhausted.. everyone else gets to break but I feel like I can't.. I feel wrong. Like I don't deserve to. I guess the saying's right.. 

If you're going through hell, keep going...