headcanons of yellowjackets x reader (teen timeline) and reader who is beefy and tall and everyone kind of has a crush on her, but you can make the focus be Lottie Nat and Shauna, please please please
⚽You were always the pride of your parents, always doing every kind of sport you could. If you were any good, you'd be taking lessons.
⚽Your parents never cared that you liked girls - which is amazing for you, actually - just as they never cared that you hated sports or that you liked arts and music. But they always demanded maximum commitment from you in your academic and sporting life.
“I don't care what you like. Just don't let it get in the way of your athletics!”
⚽Your parents were ice skaters, and when your mother became pregnant, they gave up everything for you, which is one of the main reasons why they won't leave you alone until you're a full athlete.
⚽When you went to high school, your parents immediately pressured you to join the girls' soccer team. And lucky for them, you were quite a player.
⚽You had it all, the muscles, the speed, the physical fitness, everything. You could certainly have been team captain if you'd cared enough.
⚽Soccer wasn't your favorite sport, in fact, you didn't even like all those sports your parents pushed you into, but you knew that this was something very important to them, so you sacrificed a little.
⚽You learned to like the Yellowjackets, you learned to put up with the training, and you learned to make friends with all those girls. Being in the sports world wasn't easy, especially when everyone saw you as an imminent threat.
⚽But that wasn't the case with the girls on the team. They liked you, they were friendly and nice, never treating you like an opponent.
🦌The first to approach you was Lottie. She complimented your expensive soccer shoes and laughed when you made a joke about stealing them from a store. She became very comfortable with you from then on.
🦌You were seen together in the hallways, and Lottie was always very physical. Holding your hands, hugging your shoulders and holding your biceps while laughing at something you said. She was nice.
🃏And then came Natalie.
🃏The girl with the bleached hair appeared to you as a really unexpected surprise. The one you didn't suspect, the one you didn't even know existed.
🃏Not that you hadn't noticed Nat, but she seemed from a completely different world to you. Always getting into trouble with her friends and skipping classes. You only saw her at training and you'd never really spoken to her before.
🃏You don't usually talk much, you're quieter, in the way that made people want to know more about you. But no Nat, the blonde girl hadn't really noticed you until that fateful day.
🃏Seeing the girl walking down the sidewalk and being bothered by two guys in a car was worrying, you walked close to her just to make sure nothing happened. And just as you imagined, one of them got out of the car when Nat didn't pay any attention to the idiotic words he was spewing at her.
🃏When you saw the boy get out of the passenger seat to reach the blonde, you hurried your steps, shouting at him when you saw the idiot grab one of her arms.
🃏He didn't even see you coming, or the punch you threw at him. Falling to the ground, the boy groaned in pain, while the other one sped off in his stupid convertible car.
🃏You accompanied Nat home that day - or at least as far as she allowed - just to make sure the other boy didn't come back to disturb the blonde.
🃏Nat started paying more attention to you from that day on.
🖊️🎀The next ones were Shauna and Jackie, yes, because if you have the attention of one, you have the attention of both.
🎀Jackie was the first to talk to you, but Shauna had been watching you from afar for a long time.
🎀It was hard to understand the mixed signals Jackie was giving you, she was very flirty, but she had a boyfriend, and you honestly didn't understand what all the small talk she was having with you was about.
🖊️With Shauna it was different, you saw her through Jackie. Not that you didn't like the Taylor girl, but you didn't want to get involved in whatever was going on between her and her boyfriend.
🖊️So whenever the Yellowjackets' captain wasn't in sight, you got a little closer to Shauna. You thought it was cute how she could always talk about things she liked around you.
🖊️🎀And you may not have noticed the look on her face, but the Taylor girl saw from afar when Shauna's eyes lit up when she talked to you in the stands, or when she was away with Jeff at lunchtime. she always watched.
👓Just like Misty.
👓You didn't know Misty very well, you only knew that she was in love with Coach Scott. The poor girl would completely lose it around the guy, who was obviously gay. You knew one of your own when you saw one, but you thought it best to leave that to yourself.
👓You and the girl with the curls never had a full interaction, but you noticed the looks she gave you when you were a bit nicer to her than the other girls.
👆If you hardly noticed Misty, you didn't even know Mari existed. At least not until you saw her at the nationals party and discovered that she was basically a born follower of Jackie.
👆All you saw of Mari was the completely drunk girl blatantly trying to flirt with you. You thought it was funny at first, but how clueless she seemed made you a little worried.
👆You didn't have much time to check the girl out, at least not when Lottie pulled you away from her when she saw that Mari was too close to you.
🦌You and Lottie kissed that night. The night before the nationals, the night before all the chaos happened.
⚽That night, Shauna saw you and Lottie kissing. That night she got into a fight with Taissa. You remember how you and Van tried to defuse the situation, and you remember whispering a little apology to Laura Lee when all the girls told her to shut up.
🧤You remember Jackie forcing all of you to say kind words to each other. You remember telling Van that you loved her hair, and that she was a great goalkeeper.
🧠And you remember telling Tai that you loved her intelligence, and that you thought she was one of the most beautiful girls you'd ever seen.
⚽You also remember giving Lottie and Nat a lift - the blonde finally told you where she lived - that night, dropping Lottie off first, and then dropping Nat off.
🃏Except that the blonde girl didn't get out of your car. She looked at you, unbuckled her seatbelt and jumped on you, kissing your lips with desire.
🃏The next thing you know, you're in the car alone as Nat pulls into the trailer park.
⚽After the plane crashed, it was as if something had clicked in your head, everything seemed to have changed.
⚽On the one hand, it was the first time in years that you didn't have to race against time and do everything your parents wanted. But on the other hand, you were stuck with a bunch of teenage girls who were starting to get very strange.
🦌The weird stuff started with Lottie's visions. You were the girl's safe haven, Lottie couldn't stay away from you for long. And of course you were able to notice how strange things started to get.
🦌The shivers she got when you went into the cabin, that stupid game of conjuring up ghosts or some shit like that. You saw a version of Lottie you'd never seen before, and as much as you didn't want to, it scared you a little.
🃏You didn't have much time to discuss it with her, at least not when you were one of the ones chosen to hunt with Nat and Travis. The blonde girl practically forced you to go along with her because she didn't want to spend time alone with the Martinez boy.
⚽you didn't tell Lottie about how you kissed Nat that night. And you certainly didn't tell Nat how Lottie had kissed you hours before the kiss happened.
🃏When Lottie walked away, things between you and Nat started to blossom. Even though Lottie kissed you at the party, and you've been a great support to her ever since, you've never talked about dating. And that's why you allowed yourself to test the waters with Nat.
👔It was clear that you wanted to push a certain boy away.
👔You didn't like Travis, but observing had always been your strong suit, and you could clearly see that the boy wasn't at all happy to see you and Nat getting close.
👔Travis was clearly insecure, you could see it a mile away, and it all intensified when the girls seemed to look more at you than at him.
👔It started small, the girls complimenting you and your physique when you took a dip in the lake. And although he heard Mari say that he was hot, he also heard when Jackie said;
“Ew, you can't be that desperate… at least not when she's here,” while pointing at you.
👔Then it was with the gun, you were good, you knocked over all the cans without even looking at them properly. It seemed easy to you, like second nature, and Travis hated it.
👔It got worse when he tried to chop wood. You needed wood for the fireplace, and Travis quickly grabbed the axe, a proud smile on his face when he managed to chop the first board. Happy to finally be able to show that he was better than you at something.
👔But as the morning wore on, the Martinez boy's arms grew tired, and before long, Taissa simply told him to get some rest, saying that you would take over from now on.
👔You missed the look of anger and his jaw twitching with rage when he saw how much faster you cut the wood. And you certainly missed the angry snort he let out as he stomped away after seeing some girls spying on you doing the heavy lifting.
🎀Jackie was there, watching you too. Although the girl felt useless in the wilderness, she always forgot when she looked at you.
Then the doomcoming happened.
🎀Jackie dragged you away from the girls while the party was going on. She brought you back to the cabin, whispering to you all her intentions from the start.
🎀Telling you how much she wanted you, telling you that you were better than Jeff, telling you everything she ever wanted to tell you.
🎀Until she stopped talking and your lips were pressed together.
⚽You hadn't seen Nat anywhere at the party, and you didn't have anything serious, it was more like escapes to relieve each other.
⚽At that point, you thought you were going to die, so you were going to enjoy whatever the wilderness gave you.
⚽But that night ended badly for you.
⚽Being kissed by all those girls, and then chased and tied to a tree with a pine cone in your mouth, just waiting for Shauna to put a knife to your throat and have the courage to do what Lottie was saying needed to be done.
⚽That night may not have ended so well for you, but you can't complain, at least not after what happened to Jackie.
⚽When winter came, everything seemed robotic. You hunted, chopped wood, ate, slept and did it all over again.
⚽Your brain went on high alert after that episode - which you later discovered was because of Misty's mushrooms - and since then you've been on the back foot with all the girls, except Nat.
🃏Things between the two of you were going well, but in a friendly way. Nat knew that everyone was going through a difficult time over the winter, and after what you experienced that night, she gave you a bit of space.
🖊️Everyone knew that that night was a blur, but it was still very vivid in your memory. Incredibly, Shauna was the first to apologize.
🖊️You always knocked on the fridge door when she was inside, with Jackie's dead body. Reminding her that dinner was about to be served and that she needed to go in.
🖊️It was you that Shauna held on to when everyone agreed that they were going to put an end to Jackie's corpse.
🖊️And she clung to you even tighter when you actually put an end to Jackie's corpse.
🖊️You never thought that Shauna would see you as anything other than a friend. But you were wrong.
🖊️You were the first (and only) person Shauna became attached to after Jackie's death, and I mean it!
🖊️You're the mother of her baby, no matter what anyone says, no matter that Jeff is the real father, no matter that you don't know!
🖊️You're her baby's mother!
🖊️Maybe it's the fact that you're always there, you always make sure that she eats well (within the conditions of the wild), giving her some of your food so that she has milk to breastfeed her baby. you always make sure that she sleeps well, she even says that she only sleeps well when she's next to you. You do everything for her and that's what makes her start to believe that you're the mother of her baby and that you're going to get married when you get out of that hell.
🖊️When she loses her baby, you're the only person who can "comfort" her. Letting her have her space, and she still feels everything so strongly.
🖊️you can't blame her, she's just lost a child. That's simply traumatizing, and adding it to everything you've been through, you understand why she's so sad.
🖊️Honestly, you didn't think much of it. You were Shauna's shoulder to lean on, right?! Someone she could confide in and expect loyalty from. At least that's what she thought.
⚽So imagine how mad she was when you swore loyalty to Natalie. Your new queen, the one you had to swear loyalty to for your life, the one the cards picked out.
⚽The same girl who stole you from Shauna's hands.
⚽But you certainly didn't imagine what would come next.
⚽Nat was the Antler Queen. Shauna was out of control. Lottie was some kind of God.
⚽And you, well, you were in the middle of the crossfire.
⚽Ever since Shuana had become this authoritarian figure, she and Nat were always in a silent battle.
⚽You were always caught in the middle, trying to make things cool between them, which only ended up making things worse for you.
🖊️🃏While Shauna would purposely push you, bump into your shoulders just to get a reaction out of you, and leave angry bruises on your skin when you played "capture the bone". Natalie would wipe the blood off Shauna's bites, kiss the purple bruises on your skin and draw imaginary stars around your scars.
🖊️And that certainly made Shauna much angrier than before.
🖊️And everything got worse! The discreet (not so discreet) threats, the macabre tone of voice, the scary stares… everything made you scared to death of Shauna.
🖊️And that's exactly why you had to raise your hand and declare your vote against Coach Ben.
⚽You didn't want to, you swear you didn't! But the look Shauna gave you as she whispered the words "You're dead!" was enough to make you raise your hand in the same second.
🃏You couldn't look Nat in the eye after that, and apparently, neither could she,, since you were practically thrown out of the hut you shared, standing for a few minutes at the makeshift door before being dragged away.
🖊️You didn't even have to look up to see that it was Shauna. You felt it, the rough touch on your skin telling you everything you needed to know.
🦌However, not looking up made you miss the look of curiosity that Lottie was giving you. That puppy look, that look of pity, that look that said "I can take care of you!"
🦌You and Lottie hadn't been very close since the beating Shauna had given the girl, and although you didn't have that much time to think about Lottie, you sometimes found yourself wondering what your relationship would have been like if none of this had happened. After all, Lottie was your first.
⚽The rest of the days are almost a blur for you, living on Shauna's threats, Lottie's strange looks and Natalie's disturbing silence.
⚽You didn't want Coach Ben to die, but you almost thanked him the day it happened, the day Natalie killed him.
🃏You saw her coming out of her cabin, knife in hand, ready to do what should have been done a long time ago.
🖊️You were cautious as you pulled a sleeping Shauna off your chest, walking slowly towards the faded-haired girl.
🃏That night, Natalie spoke to you for the first time, that night, you supported her decision, that night, you apologized to her.
🖊️And when day broke and Shauna didn't find you by her side, she was furious. She was even more furious when you defended Natalie, when you wouldn't let her be killed and when you stood in front of her, daring anyone to walk over you.
🖊️Shauna had never seen this side of you, and she certainly didn't like it. The way you put yourself above her word, the way you seemed to have finally discovered that you were much bigger and stronger than the Shipman girl made her teeth grind.
🃏all this to defend Natalie.
⚽When Lottie announced that she would be the new queen, your stomach churned, you thought you had finally achieved a form of rebellion, free from Shauna's grip on you.
⚽That day, you helped Natalie prepare dinner. That night, you saw Shauna holding hands with Melissa, and that night, you saw Lottie kill your chance to go home.
⚽You certainly weren't a fan of punching or hurting people, but you can't lie and say you didn't let a little smile slip when the other guy shot an arrow at Melissa.
⚽You knew that girl was circling Shauna the whole time, waiting for a chance to present herself as the obedient dog she so desperately wanted to be.
⚽But you didn't care.
⚽Running through the woods to catch those strange people so they could finally take you home.
🃏You remember running a few meters on your own, before feeling Natalie's hand slip through yours, running along with you, squeezing your hand for comfort.
🖊️🃏You also remember Shauna's body passing between you with enough force to break your entwined hands.
"Come on, it's not time for this kind of bullshit!"
⚽You returned to the camp with Hannah that night. You also remember interrogating the woman. You don't even know what you asked, because the important thing was that you were all going home!
⚽At least you were, until Lottie started saying the strangest fucking things! She gave you a knowing look, as if silently asking if you really wanted to go back to your fake life, living the life of your parents.
🃏You almost let yourself be convinced, but Natalie's warm hand sliding over yours brought you back to reality.
🖊️That seemed to awaken something in Shauna, who quickly joined Lottie's side. It was the second time she had used the girl, using the crazy things she said for her own benefit, a twisted way of getting you closer to her.
⚽You didn't go home.
⚽But nothing could stop you from hatching a plan to make it happen.
🖊️You knew Shauna had noticed, you knew she was furious. Fortunately, you were no longer her punching bag.
🖊️It was foolish of you to think that the consequences of Shauna Shipman's actions wouldn't come back to you.
🖊️When Shauna's scream chased Melissa out of the cabin, you felt a shiver run down your spine.
🖊️That scream used to be directed at you.
"NOBODY GAVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU TILL ME!"
🖊️Those words probably hurt, but you have no idea how it got to you, the whole thing escalating too high for you to keep up.
"All right, go back to her." Melissa said, pointing with her head in your direction. Turning her back soon after. "Just don't come crying to me when she realizes you're fucking crazy."
🖊️The sound of the gun, Melissa turning around, her hands shaking, Shauna telling you to repeat what you said…
🖊️The shot.
🖊️You saw it all. The shame of a girl standing there with wet pants, even Shauna's stupid, cruel smile.
⚽You didn't understand, the whole thing had turned all of you into animals! How could Shauna, the girl who liked to write and made fun of you for watching bad movies, now be terrorizing people? How Lottie, the sweet girl who talked to you on the first day, told you her secrets, made you feel special. Was she now a completely insane girl, killing people for the sake of the wilderness?
🃏You became attached to Nat, she was the closest thing you had to humanity, the closest thing you had to home.
🃏The closest thing you ever had to love.
🃏And out of love, you did what you had to do. Out of love, on that winter's day, in the midst of all that savagery, in the midst of all that, you found yourself by Nat's side.
🃏Kissing her lovingly after she and Hannah had changed clothes, asking if you could go with her, telling her that you loved her.
"Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
"Of course I do, you idiot."
🃏You remember leaning your forehead against Natalie's, your two breaths mingling before she nudged you lightly with a smile on her lips, telling you that everything would be all right.
⚽You watched the girl head off in the direction of the mountains, you took a deep breath before following Hannah back to the campsite, intertwining your fingers with the woman's as Shauna looked in the direction of the two of you.
🖊️You winced when Shauna spoke to "Nat", hoping that it was enough of a distraction for your girlfriend to make it to her destination.
🖊️You held your breath when Shauna removed the mask from Hannah's face, revealing the woman's face.
🖊️But you couldn't help the little smile that escaped your lips when Shauna grabbed the thick fabric of your clothes, screaming at the top of her lungs.
"WHERE THE HELL IS NATALIE?"
Okay, I don't really know if this is good, but I hope you like it Anon <3
ngl, I love writing for Beefy!reader (I see myself in this)