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I love that in tumblr nowadays you can comment posts normally and privately instead of having to reblog a whole ass thread and scream to the void like a madman in the middle of a plaza.

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I've been reading Calvin & Hobbes lately and I really liked this panel, the lines are so simple and expressive, it's really good at transmitting the vibe.

This is my first experience with the comic and Watterson keeps amazing me with how dynamic and expressive his art is, I hope to be able to make my art as expressive as his one day.

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Updated my presentation card for art shows and stuff 🎨

I started disliking the old one for a while now, feeling it could be better, so for this card I actually put some more thought into the design and investigated a bunch of presentation cards to figure out what elements made me like ones better than others, and this is the final result~

I actually wasn't all that convinced by some details like the title being too close to the trim or the dialogue from the speech bubble on the back coming off as too awkward, so I changed that after printing (I couln't figure that out before bc of time constraints), I also want to use a different manga panel as well but I don't have a better option rn, I really need to get on with drawing more manga lol

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Sharing

I always forget I want to share my thoughts about things I like here and through Twitter but (besides forgetting to do so) I find it to be such a hassle to gather visual material to accompany whatever I could say about the subject at hand, and just explaining things through text is not enough! I really want to do justice to whatever I may share, so it looks interesting enough to make someone out there consider checking it out, と思う.

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Por fin abrí un servidor de Discord para el tema de los streams y para compartir cosas de arte también, la mayoría de los miembros y el contenido están en Español pero todos son bienvenidos de entrar si gustan 🥳

Check out the Rubberserver333 community on Discord - hang out with 8 other members and enjoy free voice and text chat.

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13.09.2024 Why I draw

I've been in an art block for the last couple of years, maybe since I started doing art as a job, and I think I finally figured out why and how to get out of it, I thought about writing this privately or not writing it at all but it may be useful to anyone that may be going through the same thing.

I knew I had some kind of art block or burn out for a while now, but I never stopped drawing because of my job or because I wanted to keep moving my personal projects forward even if it was little by little, I also never stopped because I've had small instances of art block in the past and resting never helped, it just kinda gets me out of it when I rest, it stops the groove, the inspiration, something like that. I've watched a bunch of videos on the subject and some things have helped but I don't think I have overcome this burn out/art block combo entirely (some of the things that helped a little were to turn off social media or any distraction, focus on my end goals, stop overthinking the process of drawing and just get to it, going back to draw the subjects that interested me when I was the most productive and inspired, rearranging my art space, trying other media, having my tools close and ready to use, etc.)

But just today I came across two videos that covered a different subject: that you don't really need skill to make a hit as an artist, they pretty much said what you would guess: expand your drawing subjects, try new things, do marketing, etc. There's also a big point that as a comic artist I've always been aware about, what people end up caring the most about is the content of your art, the story you're telling, the emotions you're evoking, the connection they can make with you through your art, it's all about feeling connected and understood. And I agree, my favorite artists are the ones that bared their hearts and personality to the public as much as they could, I know this is what makes art good, I can look at the scribble of a child and tbh as long as they left a part of them in that scribble, as long as they drew it with all their heart I can tell it's good art.

But I don't want to do that.

I never wanted to do that, I've always resisted the idea of baring myself to a bunch of strangers, I hate the idea of performing as myself to entertain everyone else, I'm not even interested in being perceived, I always thought there had to be another way to make it as an artist without opening up, but now those videos confirmed to me that doing just that is inherently the key to making good art, to make a hit; I have to accept it even if I don't want to do it...... but do I really lack the basic human need for connection and communication we all inherently have? Do I really not want to connect? to open up? I actually don't feel I don't want to connect entirely, so who do I want to connect with? who do I draw my comics for if not for my self?

why do I make art?

if right now I drew something with the sole purpose of showing it to someone else, connecting and baring a piece of myself, who would I want it to be for? I do feel the need to connect, but only with my friends--

My friends. this is who I want to draw for.

I've been burnt out because I stopped drawing for the only reason I wanted to draw: to connect with my friends. I want to show them who I am, what I like, what I think, how I feel. Fan art? I want to show my friends the shows I like and how I percieve them. Comics? I want to make comics that make them laugh and relate to the stories, I do want my friends to see all of me, no wonder why I was so burnt out ever since I started taking art as my job, I was just drawing for money, I never cared about that, and even in my personal projects I was just drawing for numbers, I never really cared about that either; but the thought of drawing something for the sole purpose of showing the result to my friends seems infinitely more appealing than everything else.

I have yet to proove it but I'm sure this is how I'll get out of this art rut, I remember the times when I was full of passion and drive to make art and specially comics, it was in middle school, I couldn't draw my comics fast enough to show my friends, I drew so many comics back then, it is also when I started posting online, I wanted to show my friends what I was doing even if I didn't have them right in front of me, that connection with my friends has always been my drive to draw, I've always been ecstatic to show my drawings to them even today, I just had to remember my motivations and be aware of why I draw.

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Hoy hizo un calor del diablo pero igual salió stream, así la experiencia:

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