#behindthatsmile

[fulipa]

Everyone sees who I appear to be, but only a few know the real me. You can only see what I chose to show, there’s so much behind this smile... you don’t even know. . . . . . #smile #behindthatsmile #mysmile #feelings #mood #instamoment #instagood #instamood #picsart #likes #hearts #septumpiercing #septum #makeup #makeupoftheday #muotd #picoftheday #pictureoftheday #potd #youmakeup #red #love https://www.instagram.com/p/B84Pa94h9xM/?igshid=bvc3p7071y25

[imeeptinio26]

#wildandfree 💘❤ #guess what is something💏 #behindthatsmile 😁 (at Palawan Island) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuaqPw4ADMu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=m3mxb8ic1pfy

[kleen-machine]

Another late tea. #this_aint_no_youth_club #behindthatsmile #pouchedeggontoast #beanontoast (at Shurdington)

[fulipa]

Everyone sees who i appear to be, but only a few know the real me. You can only see what i choose to show, there’s so much behind this smile... You don’t even know. . . . . . #smile #realme #hide #behindthatsmile #makeup #makeuponpoint #glow #highlight #highlighter #brows #eyebrows #eyebrowsonfleek #nosering #contouring #smoothskin #hudabeauty #sleekmakeup #kyliecosmetics #piercing #potd #picoftheday #quote #qotd #mood #instamood #muotd #nofilter #snapchat #addme #follow #feed #collabs

[pallavikaushik]

#shapeofyou #behindthatsmile #theatrics

[autodidactivechaos]

I'm tired of feeling like a total shit. I just want the old us back, the new me and the old you. I miss the way you'd wake me up in the morning just to hear me talk to you in my just-woke-up voice. I miss the way you'd ask me how I feel and I could just tell you what's going on in my mind. Even if sometimes you listen and don't understand, I could see you try. And just that, I know that I could be happy for the rest of my life. Just by that gesture, when you take my hand into yours and make me feel like I have your full undivided attention. I could be with you until time ends

[autodidactivechaos]

Who are you becoming to?

What have you left to say ? You've done more than enough to cause a pain so terrible it'll tear up a void in their hearts that would never ever heal ..  They left you behind because you're of no value to them anymore. 

Your best friend Jelly left you because she thought she'd be better off without you.. She moved away from you as far as she could because she's soo sick with you .. There wasn't a thing you did for her that made her happy, you even forgot to cherish her when she's feeling down ..  So she left you to die, you fucking asshole..  

Your sweetest friend Nichole left you cuz she found a better guy to hang out with. She said that even if she was still with you, she can't help but think about what kind of guys would still be there if she left you...  and she did.. 

and now she's happy. 

And now, you're hanging on a single thread inbetween damnation and happiness. You're a jerk,  a fucking piece of shit. You said you won't go back to who you were before.. You said you'd change for the better you .. Well maybe at some point you did, but that broke off so easily now, didn't it? 

Now here you are again, trapped. So alone, I disgust you.. They all disgust you .. You call yourself a "lover" ? How pathetic. You should disappear. You should just be erased from this world without a trace. Without a memory of you being here, everybody's lives will be much greater ... 

Why ? Why are you being like that? 

I know you, I've known you for a long time.. I know you have problems at home.. I know you have problems with yourself .. I know what kind of shit you're going through right now .. but if you really don't want to be just like those shitty people you hate so much, is it right for you to fuckup people's lives because you 're fuckedup too ? I know you have issues .. Deep, dark issues.. 

To be abandoned ? To be betrayed? To be deceived ? To be haunted? 

The burden you carry on your shoulders seem heavier than they show on your smile.. I know you're sad and empty inside .. I know you're hurt .. 

I know how lonely it is .. in a world which revolves in ignorance .. in a world where in nobody could ever understand you .. like they really can't ... you're so unpredictable, even for me ... You don't have people to talk to about your feelings cuz none of them ever felt that way before .. You don't have people to share music to cuz they don't like your kind of music ..  

I want to be with you, until the end .. but I just can't seem to understand you .. I can't see who you really are .. It's like I don't even know you anymore ... 

Who are you becoming, jes? I'm asking this, because I am aware of my own well-being .. I, am you .. 

[autodidactivechaos]

Worthless

Face it, all this suffering is your fault. 

All this pain you've caused is all of your doing .

Everybody left you because you're such a screw-up. 

Those whom you try to hold close unto, will be damned and be removed from your life. This is your fate, you will never meet someone who'll embrace who you really are. Even those who gave birth to you won't talk to you anymore, they don't even bother ask you about your well-being. They don't care. And they won't. You're a nothing. You're a nobody. Even if you'd disappear right now, it won't even count. Even if a few will mourn for you, they'll move on. All that's left for you to have is that name of yours carved atop of the epitaph a few measurements of dirt from your coffin.