#bekzod

[classical-hits]

மன்மதனே நீ கலைஞன் தான்

[abdumalikovbekzod]

J U S T... | #bekzod #abdumalikov __________ #actorslife #modeling #tvlife #tvproject #актер #модель #ташкент #узбекистан #tashkent #uzbekistan #закадр #backstage #tv (at Tashkent, Uzbekistan) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2Kd1KmASc6/?igshid=1iawu0g7qejab

[abdumalikovbekzod]

So... • • • It's coming. #abdumalikov #bekzod __________ #actor #model #filmmaker #актер #модель #клипмейкер #кино #театр #film #theatre #poet #poem #tashkent #uzbekistan #ташкент #узбекистан (at Tashkent, Uzbekistan) https://www.instagram.com/p/B18RrMyAnPn/?igshid=1k7cujh422yj8

[ravshan83uz]

Bekzod Baxromov - Guzalsan (Official music video)

[wouldyou-go-fuckyourself-if-blog]

Took 12 tablets of Dramamine last night. Started fucking seeing people that live half way across the map and apparently was sleep walking.

[wouldyou-go-fuckyourself-if-blog]

[wouldyou-go-fuckyourself-if-blog]

Few Things I learned about myself lately

-I actually enjoy being tired and working literally 24 hours and then feeling like a zombie

-I like boring and calm people way more than happy and energetic ones; the second type is just filled with annoyance I have to deal with and make sure to go with the flow

-Even if I hate some band or an artist/singer there will always be one song that's really catchy that I really like and listen to everyday [Makes me wanna question if I actually like Dreen Day, Three Days Grace, Eminem, Dubstep and Macklemore]

-In the most non-depressing way possible, I would totally shoot myself If you gave me a gun or a pill that would mean my instant deathm just to see what happens after I die. Otherwise I'm too much of a coward to hang myself or overdose on drugs, because there's that chance of just being the middle, not dead or alive, and I hate that. It's like being poor but not poor enough to get the benefits.

-As much as I hate language, I enjoy free-writes very much. It's much better than venting to someone, people suck, they really do, the one's that don't are complicated.

-I am loosing interest for college and school work everyday. I got into SUNY IT and City College, I should be happy, Instead I'm thinking about running away, working for few years until I master guitar then starting a band, If that doesn't work, get a shotgun and place it under my throat, again please don;t take this as depressing, I'm merely curious as to what happens after you die.

-I actually have no patience, therefore I hate drawing. I can do very well if I try hard enough and considering I had no one to teach me, I draw very well, but too many times have I found myself just ripping the sketch into pieces even after doing such a good job.

-I am becoming addicted to cigarettes  woops, it started with once a week and now its twice a day, unless I'm too lazy to buy a pack. Which is good and bad. Idk.

- There are some cool grown ups out there, Catalano [My Calc teacher] my aunt and my guitar teacher are awesome. 

-I don;t care how stupidly shitty jerky w.e. it sounds, I really hate my family, not the I wanna kill them type, but, you;re annoying leave me alone I know what I am doing type. Everyone except my aunt, she's a graceful and a beautiful creature that understands and notices. 

[wouldyou-go-fuckyourself-if-blog]

When I run away I will say sorry to my parents, to my brother, and to my sister. If there is a possibility, I will help them financially. When I runaway I will forget everyone in my past, I despise everyone of them except one person. Before I run away I will call my Aunt, the only understandable and graceful human being on this planet and tell her what I am about to do. She will understand me, because she's going through the same pressure. However, right now I need to go back to being careless about everything and everyone around me in this filthy place. Say nothing, think nothing, be nothing.