cDream is such an emotional fucker he acts on his emotions on impulse so much and says things only to protect himself in the long run and even though the heaviness of the words he said and the lies that spilled disguised as threats and strong words are weighing him down and choke him up and he probably regrets a lot and looks up to the sky with his eyes closed whispering apologies like a prayer that he didnt mean them, he swears, he didnt. He was under so much pressure for so long he's been in so much pain that all he knows now is to protect himself and to wake up tomorrow to continue a plan that he may be contemplating the worth of and how much he sacrificed and how much he still cares about those things and. cDream <3<3
c!Dream makes me so sad man something about how he knows it works he knows that if he goes out there and plays the unfeeling uncaring monster it works it keeps people out of his way it keeps him and even them safe it keeps his plan moving forwards and yet it also stings because is that who people think he is then shouldn't they know him better by now do they really think he just doesn't care and doesn't feel is this to be expected of him that they don't even bother to ask him why he's sudden behaving like this
c!Dream had to kill the person he once was to succeed in his plan of salvaging his family and yet its like none of them even know him even realize that that person is dead
And he can't even complain because it's useful if people look at him tortured and feel afraid and nothing else that's useful if people don't ask questions about what he's doing that's useful if people just believe whatever he leads them to believe that's useful
If they never even bother to ask him though to try to understand him though then that hurts and he can go up to them and tell them directly that actually I made a mistake I really do care and they might just believe him at all
So he's gotta keep going because his path to this plan is the only thing he's still got going on because the snake that really does just bite is what's considered evil but he's got a motive to stick to
also like the questions were also repeated in English and answered in English. What is there to complain
Yeah like we literally saw Dream asking Quackity to please translate for everybody and he did it saying that "Okay for anybody that didn't understand" so it's not like you were getting left out if you didn't understand the literally only two questions in Spanish in the whole hours long panel
He also answered them all in English as well either way
And also the first girl who asked in Spanish literally had to do it because she was struggling a lot with her English as you know people who aren't born into an English country do
Honestly this idea that USA people have that everybody must speak their language and assimilate into their culture and their way of doing things and otherwise they are wrong and being selfish is so freaking annoying and high-key just racist
If a Latino wants to speak with a Latino in Spanish it's not our freaking issue if your white ass can't understand it
We need more cDream apologists we gotta expand we need to spread the propaganda!
WE NEED THE PROPAGANDA WE NEED THE PROPAGANDA
The propaganda is about how he should be spoon-fed because he's my disabled little mewo meow and also about how his evilness is so hot and how his sick his skills are
And every propaganda poster ends with that one quote about ruthlessness everybody here loves
Okay okay idea. cDream started wearing his mask after shit started going downhill and wars started and he had to be in his role, so almost everyone knows how he looks like. And post prison, he stops wearing it after it has been shattered to a million pieces and the remains were burnt. He just walks around -with his cane obviously- maskless which is now even more terrifying because of all the new scars and the dead look in his eyes. No one really recognise him, not really, because he stopped looking like himself a long time ago and a mask isnt needed anymore.
Ohhh I love this I always sorta pictured the mask as something he wears only halfway on his face depending on who he's around like with techno it was always off with Tommy fully on with Punz and Ranboo is only covering half his face
So I really like the idea of it being something he doesn't even feel the need to wear during the early days because why would he it's literally just him and his family he's not in danger there's no need to hide or run away any longer in their new home
And then all the issues start and he can tell that Wilbur doesn't take him seriously unless he's playing the role and looking it and he doesn't trust Schlatt and Quackity is just a friend of a friend and now there's so many new people and they are all his friends but he can't just chill out and be friends anymore now he needs to be the problem solver of everybody all the time he needs the mask on
And then the prison happens and now there's no mask and Same already knew what he looked like anyways when he gets killed and Tommy takes his mask it doesn't even surprise him either he has seen his face before but after the prison
When his face is fully scarred and cut and bruised when Sam can't even recognize him anymore that if he didn't know exactly how each scar got onto his face he wouldn't even trust it really was him still here and not some insane trick he managed to pull off again
He doesn't bother getting a new mask Punz gives it to him he wears it from time to time he really doesn't care that much anymore he can tell the people around here are scared of his scars so that's good that's better he can tell they don't even recognize him it doesn't even hurt he swears
If he can be used to scare predators away then so be it
I also love the idea of people like Aimsey and Eryn legit not even imagining Dream's face could ever look any different from how it looks right now of Dream knowing and hating that
I'm still thinking about disabled cDream and thinking about other people (especially the og members) thinking about how Dream more than once brushed off a broken bone like it was nothing and causally kept doing whatever. Which shouldn't be humanly possible he shouldn't be doing that (he's always been a little self destructive, cmon) and when they see him with crutches they do a double take like. This is the man that did parkour with a broken leg that was already bruising and didnt whine one bit before he got a treatment. And now. He uses crutches. Canes. A wheelchair even though not that often. And. How did he Get Like That.
I just really love thinking about other people's reactions because this is cDream. He's insane. He doesnt know no limits of the human body. He doesnt care. And then. There he is.
But also him absolutely being a little shit with his equipments like hell yes. He doesn't care he doesnt give a shit he's a gremlin I love him
Oh my God Percy I know this has been sitting around in my inbox for freaking ages now and I promise you I have been thinking about it and feeling bad for not answering every day since you sent it but I just couldn't get my headspace right to actually write something shightly coherent as a response but at long last here it finally freaking is
Oh today I'm so obsessed with the image of who Dream used to be and who he currently is
The idea of even the people closests to him looking at him and not recognizing him anymore of them not even asking him what changed
I kinda relate to this to injuring yourself but refusing to seek treatment right away and really it's fine you are fine until you aren't and now you desperately need it (It's the autistic experience, lol)
Dream for sure knows the limits but he doesn't care he's doing what he thinks needs to be done and he's not gonna slow down until he can achieve what he seeks in life it doesn't matter how much it hurts even if nobody will even try to talk to him about it
I do adore the image of Dream who's a complete little gremlin with his mobility aids it really fits him and it allows me to proyect onto him even more
If you dont mind, what is karmaland like? I dont speak spanish but im curious since people keep talking about it
Oh I don't mind you asking at all I love talking about Karmaland!
At its core Karmaland is a pretty old by now Minecraft SMP there's 11 members so not a lot povs to get lost in actually and Quackity is the newest debuting member
The other debutee is IlloJuan Staxx Mangel WillyRex Fargan Rubius Lolito Luzu Alexby and Vegetta777 they are all really big and old time Spanish Minecraft YouTubers
Karmaland has had up until now 5 seasons the fifth one is the one that's being streamed right now
Karmaland is an RP server as well it has a lot of different mods some even unique to only the series it also has a scripted storyline with NPC characters all the seasons are actually disconnected from each other beyond some call backs here and there so really knowing the history of the old seasons and characters isn't all that important
There's also scripted events in which all the members meet and because of the rules and time limits most often than not all the members meet each other during the streams
The server is more rp based with characters like Lolito Luzu Rubius and Quackity now or building based like Willy and Vegetta so the lore while pretty active and consistent doesn't tend to get too heavy on the pvp side
There's many different maps and overall the series it's just really funny everybody is always trying to prank each other starting things pretty active with chat it's also pretty chill there's quite a lot of building streams as well and the scripted events are all really cool
All the members are long time friends so the vibes are just really nice on the streams
Karmaland lore wise does have a lot of interesting things like the gods the time travel the different dimension the hero's past the npcs stories and the different events + character arcs and there's quite a lot to analyse if you ask me (But I just do that for fun tbh it's not that serious)
The characters do very much exist and there's quite a few solo missions dedicated to each pov so whoever you watch while you won't miss anything from the main storyline your pov will have its own unique lore and character moments as well
My personal favorite has always been Luzu but right now I'm a Quackity main
But because of how relaxed everything is it never really overtakes just the vibes of everybody having fun and playing together so it doesn't get too heavy
If you want more in depth explanation there's also this post my mutual made it's really good and it explains a lot of how the dynamic works in Karmaland as a general not just on this season specifically
Quackity carves the :] to Dream right? And Dream tries to cut them back out but it cant work because of Reasons. So. Him being the very fucked up person he is. He burns tattoos over them instead. But after everyone first saw the scars. Because I need people to see it okay it's personal
Hi I was sad and bored and procrastinating and didn't wanna work so I took this prompt you gave me and turned it into a mini fic cuz I haven't actually written anything in like forever
I also like to imagine that after this c!Wilbur and c!Tommy only get to see the burned off scar and are super freaked out about it
Idk if I should put warnings here, it's a bit descriptive over Dream cutting off the :] from his skin, it's not really descriptive about the burning it off part tho
It's really very simple Dream thinks the current situation isn't so favorable therefore he needs to do something to change it into something better. Something more useful and practical something that doesn't make him look like a scared unrealiable runaway
Because he can see it he can see it on the way Punz looks at him in the way he desperately wants to ask again if he's really alright in the way his eyes never leave the :] scar branded on the sides of his collarbones
He can tell in the way he's being gentle. He hates it.
He can tell in the way GhostBoo clicks his tongue at him, they are still planning they are still working but he can't afford the shaking of his head and the humming the knowing gaze.
He needs these allies to make the plan work. He needs them to know he's as efficient as he's always been, that yes sure the plan went a little south but it's nothing that can be easily repaired and put back on course.
He doesn't even need to look at them for it, he already knew how it looked like, from the way Sam's eyes never left his body, battered and bloody, sprawled with both arms wide open, and one of his knees completely limp, like there wasn't even a bone there anymore.
How he would always look at him.
He could tell from the way Techno had looked at him, the reflection on his eyes, from the uncomfortable laugh, and the pursed lips, when he had asked for his cape back, together with the armour, together with everything else. He had seen Philza looking down on him, he had seen Techno looking at him differently now.
Dream hated it.
So it was a pretty straightforward solution, he hated it, because it was getting on his way, it wasn't letting him work how he was supposed to. He cannot be seen as a weak target, he doesn't have time for that.
So he made a pretty straightforward movement, cut it off.
He had done it before once in childhood he had hated the mole on his left check right in the middle of his face, so he had grabbed one of the longer sharper knives they owned, and he had cut if off, as easy as that, a problem resolved.
It was the same course of action now, he had grabbed his sword, glistening enchanted netherite, sharp so sharp, he had forced his hands to stop trembling, he had ignored the visage of Quackity behind the mirror, and the sound of Sam's voice somewhere near him.
He could always hear the prison's alarm, he could always hear them right next to him.
He had forced his breathing to slow down, and he had carefully placed the blade right on the middle of his bone, besides some old popped moles, and he had made the swift cut, staring right at the spot in the mirror, with both eyes open.
The skin opened, as a slice, and peeled off him, revealing its gross underside, full of scar tissue, and yellowy infected material, the white viscous fat coating the area.
And it bled, and Dream felt lightheaded, and he was searching for a cat that wasn't there, his legs trembled, sending him crashing against the mirror, some glass shards changing from light to black translucent coating his Floor and his hair.
Dream steaded himself grabbing the side of the sink in front of him.
The opened skin was still bleeding, it didn't bother him anymore, except when it did, who cares.
He drank the potions he had prepared for this.
And then the worst possible outcome happened, it simply grew back together with the scar, and he wondered if this is what Techno had made Quackity feel.
Dream sees his current predictament and his burned and scarred skin and thinks well life isn't supposed to be easy
And if he can't just cut it off like in the past, he will do something else, something that's for sure going to work.
He knew this, it was dumb of his part to not just do it from the beginning, it was slowing down the process for no reason
He was going to burn them off.
He had already done it before, he would put his hands inside the lava and watch the burned tissue replaced the cut open one it was a way to pass the time
It was something to do
He needed to do something
So he does it
He goes and gets the lava and he ignores everything happening on his head or how his body convulses he sinks in it because it doesn't scare him anymore because it's warm and it feels familiar and it's exhalerating and it's effective and it's going to work and he hates that fucking :] and he needs it gone and out of his life and he can't answer whenever Punz asks him if he's alright
He smells the burning flesh, he wonders how it tastes.
He dies, he respwans, is all pretty basic.
He can tell the next time Punz and GhostBoo see him, hell even the next time Techno sees him, that the lack of mark and what is replacing it makes them uncomfortable.
