#big heavy

[stoutstoatpress]

1040 maps carried up 4 flights of stairs. I am very sweaty. Anyway, Border Riding pre orders will go out September 18th, alongside Kickstarter Backer pledges 😁

[stillunusual]

Big Heavy @ M/Darbnica, Riga 29/12/2023

[zelzelez]

These days I have been feeling lost, yearning for a moment, or rather a phase, in which i feel like i belong, i matter. Lately I’ve been laughing a little bit at old me who thought bc she’s had a depression once, she’ll be set up for life since she now knows how to handle it. I’m glad she enjoyed that time and that no one told her she’d probably be going through cycles… seemingly endless ones… I am glad I didn’t know with 24 I‘d feel like 12 and 45 at the same time (although obv I have no clue how it’ll be when i’m older. i just… don’t feel my age? but it feels childish now to express it like that).

I want to be surrounded by people I love and who love me just as much. Who doesn’t, I know, but lately I also don’t know what else to do with these feelings but to write the same post again and again. I wish I felt more connected to myself, I wish I could identify with my own expression…

[creamysacrilege]

hey does anyone want a buy one get one free of memories ive turned into ash plus all my jesus bible knowledge? the visions have plagued me since birth and i wish to no longer be seeing because catholicism is now another tik tok aesthetic?? how do i get this off my fyp i am an old old man. why catholicism of all things. yes some of the cathedrals are pretty but theres so many types of masonry that you could have chosen. and you picked catholicism???? out of all of em???? the whole bunch and you picked the for some reason smelling of baby poweder fuckin prune with a rosary on it???? what???

[animehead]

so... after much raving by kim, i finally got around to reading Big Heavy which most of you have already read, but getting me to read fics is like pulling teeth--not because i don't like reading (i'm an almost librarian, after all) but because my eyes are fucked up and i'm just generally lazy. if you ever want to win my heart, read (or make them up) stories to me. i'll love you forever. 

but anyway...

good lord. 

if i wasn't already in love with Bro, i definitely would be now. 

i'm just saying, that if i actually liked a guy enough to want his junk anywhere near my mouth and he ate a taco while i was blowing him, i'd probably be in fucking love.