#biggaybenny

[some-october-in-the-future]

holy fuck this fic has me in a chokehold. it’s been deleted from ao3 but a kind soul found a link from the wayback machine

the cheapest room in the house by biggaybenny

Explicit | 89k words

what if instead of a very sincere and earnest love confession dean just found out cas was gay? no confession, no god-jack endgame. just post-s15 stupidity. just dean being deranged.

the dean downloads grindr for cas fic

[tomoyorecs]

the cheapest room in the house

Author: biggaybenny

Rating: E

Word Count: 89,336

Summary: what if instead of a very sincere and earnest love confession dean just found out cas was gay? no confession, no god-jack endgame. just post-s15 stupidity. just dean being deranged.

the dean downloads grindr for cas fic

Commentary: I always go on and on here on this blog about how great it is when Dean and Cas are in character in the stories, but there is one thing that is even more important - good writting.

The Cheapest Room in the House is a popular Destiel fanfiction for a reason. The first time I read the summary, I felt conflicted - I didn't like the premise. It felt too OOC.

Truth be told, I don't think a lot of what Dean and Cas act like in this story is in character with what they're like in the show. I don't think Dean would do this downloading Grindr thing, I don't think he'd be so oblivious about his own feelings and I don't think Cas would engage in physical affection with Dean without being honest about how he felt and knowing Dean felt it back. All of this makes complete sense in the story. And it's good. Amazing, in fact! Because the author ties is up with beautiful characterizations, inner monologues and dialogues. And I do believe Dean would have a hard time accepting he deserves love and shut himself off, just like Cas would keep secrets about how he felt and what he wanted because he believes he should be thankful for what he already has.

Being brave, impulsive, trusting feeling over thought, caring and, eventually, honest - these are all characteristics Dean and Cas have in canon and here.

While talking to Dean and Sam, Cas tells them he has no interest in having sex with woman - in fact, he is gay. Dean, overcompensating and acting on impulsive to avoid thinking, helps him by...downloading Grindr into his own phone and making an account for Cas. From them on, Dean and Cas spend their nights together talking to men on the app and, well, things to on from there (there's also hunting and really good conversations and scenes with Sam and Jack!).

The scene where they finally get together for real is one of my favorites I've ever read! It's so good and honest and raw and beautiful.

[seraphim-spn]

man... phew.. how could I even begin? I melted? I was transported. I was seen and heard and held by a wonderful author who created something that I want to cradle in my hands and weep onto. So so thankful to have read this fic, despite it making me a little more insane but a lot more full of love and joy. So thankful to be alive if I'm honest. thank you !!!

[self-loathing-angel-of-thursday2]

“You’re human enough,” Dean continues. “And we’re sticky and gross and ashamed. And we keep secrets and we lie and we learn the shit we’re meant to say so other people don’t know we’re gross and sticky and ashamed. And that’s it.”