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[detective-prettyboy-blog1]

You can’t tell me Barry and Iris didn’t kiss at least once growing up

[yalasyardeen]

Lisa Snart + An Pigeon Tweets

[detective-prettyboy-blog1]

Like, why isn’t Captain Singh involved more in the show? I get he’s more back ground character than anything but just imagine him coming up to Joe and asking him if he was okay after losing Eddie. Handing him Eddie’s badge or gun or anything else that Eddie’s family didn’t want (if they wanted anything??) and checking up on him to see if he’s eaten or slept cause he knows what grief can do and losing two partners in a row doesn’t help anybody. 

Singh checking up on how Joe and Patty are working together (Patty maybe even going to Singh with why Joe just won’t talk to her about things and he suggests Joe might be having trouble connecting with her bc he’s lost two partners and possibly doesn’t want to get close to a third) and getting little reports from Patty about them and Singh pulling Joe aside to ask if he’s okay, how’s Iris? Barry? And just yeah, why isn’t this character more involved?

[yalasyardeen]

can we go back to the world, we had?

Spoilers for “Enter Zoom”

While I do think, we´ll get a scene with some of the same things as this next week (although less angsty maybe) I wanted to write this anyway. I apologize for any chairs you want to throw at me. Enjoy the fic.

Barry shouldn´t be in a hospital bed. He just shouldn´t. Iris had thought, she´d seen for the last time when he woke up from the coma. Turned out, she´d been dead wrong. Everything about walking into STAR Labs that morning, felt like such a painful Deja-vu that Iris could barely breathe. She paused in the doorway to the medical room and drew in a sharp intake of breath. Barry hanging like a rag doll from Zoom´s fist. She clenched her fists tightly. “He broke his spine Iris. I- I thought it would heal. But- But he´s paralyzed.”

She´d seen his limp body, hanging from Zoom´s fist, like a rag doll, like a mouse the cat was showing off to his owner. Seen the blood on his face. Iris had wanted nothing more than to grab him, and get him as far away from Zoom as possible, but if she did that, she would definitely be dead. Part of her wished, she´d done it anyway. “Hey,” she whispered, voice shaking, not sure whether Barry was awake or not. She´d said hello to him like this plenty of times, during his coma. It had taken her a month to not start crying, when he didn´t answer.

“Iris-“ he breathed out, his voice hoarse and barely there. She tried to keep the sob inside her, and was honestly not sure whether she did or not. She crossed the short distance between them, her vision tunnelling on Barry, and sat down next to him on the bed. He moved his hands, and she wrapped both of hers around it. “Shouldn´t you be- be at work or something?” he whispered, his voice croaked.

Iris honestly didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. Both were extremely tempting.

“No, don´t be stupid,” Iris said quietly, feeling her vision blurring slightly. Barry tried for a smile, but it really came across as nothing more than a pained grimace. Iris brushed her fingers across his cheek, before she moved to grasp his hand again. “I can´t just go to work, and pretend like you aren´t here, with your-“ Barry gave her a look, almost surprised she knew, and Iris let out a shuddering sigh.

“Caitlin called me, dad apparently didn´t, because he didn´t wanna make me unnecessarily worried,” Iris said, trying not to show just how angry she actually was. She had yelled at her dad for quite a while about that one, and especially described the whole scenario with Zoom at Picture News last night. Which had been pretty easy, because she was never forgetting that. “You okay, or is that a dumb question?” Iris said quietly with a soft smile. He returned it weakly. Her thumb brushed across the back of his hand.

“Not doing too well,” he admitted below his breath. She could see the tears at the edge of his eyes, and she reached out and wiped them away. Barry was shaking slightly, and Iris´ heart broke in her chest. Why couldn´t she fix this? She wanted to fix it so badly. It wasn´t fair. “I just- I just can´t believe this is happening.”

“We´ll figure it out,” Iris cupped his chin, knowing she was crying too. He gave her a disbelieving look. Her voice was shaking as she continued, but she was determined to say it. Because she knew, he needed to hear it. Maybe she needed to say it too. Barry had been hanging from Zoom´s hand by the neck, and she couldn´t do anything to save him. “We will. I don´t care if Cisco has to give you robot legs, some kind of serum or whatever. You´re going to walk, and you´re going to kick Zoom very deep into hell, as a thank you for this okay? And even if you don´t, we´ll figure that out too.”

“Do- Do you never get tired of always believing in me?” Barry asked quietly with a dry laugh. He gave her a look, and looking into his eyes, Iris could really tell how much this had affected him. Even if she hadn´t said that her immediate answer would always be the same.

“No,” she said softly and shook her head. But it was what came afterwards that was difficult. She was supposed to be good with words wasn´t she? But every option felt wrong. Because you´ve never let me down, would be a lie and they both knew it. Because I love you, felt really loaded and heavy right now, and probably would for a long time, until she stopped thinking about Eddie, every time she even considered saying those words to Barry in that way. Which she might have done, once or twice. It felt like betraying Eddie, even if Eddie really couldn´t have an opinion about it, because he was dead. Iris quickly squashed the feeling down. She smiled warmly at him. “It´s an easy job,” she whispered.

She leant forward and pressed her lips against his forehead. She felt Barry´s grip around her hand tighten a little. “Get some sleep,” she said quietly, her fingers slowly loosening their grip around Barry´s hand. “You look like you need it.”

“Iris?” he asked, his voice barely audible.

“Yeah?” she replied, her words just as quiet. Barry scooted over a little, using his arms, and she could see the strain it put on him, and she was about to protest, when he spoke again.

“Do you mind staying?” Barry asked, and gave her an almost begging look. Iris swallowed hard, but took the cue and laid down next to him, her fingers once again interlocking with his. He let out a long breath. “I need you here,” he whispered quietly, so quietly that if Iris hadn´t been barely an inch away from him, she wouldn´t have heard it.

Barry had hung from Zoom´s grab like a rag doll. After a while, his breathing was so even, Iris knew he was asleep. That was the benefit of knowing Barry so well. None of this was fair, that was the thought that wouldn´t escape her. It wasn´t fair that Eddie had died, almost straight after Iris had chosen her future with him. It wasn´t fair that her mother was dying, and Iris never even really got the chance to know her, and now she was far from sure, she even wanted to. It wasn´t fair that she had a brother out there somewhere, who she couldn´t tell her dad about, because it would crush him just as much as it crushed her. And it wasn´t fair that Barry was beaten to a bloody pulp and paralyzed, just because he wanted to help Linda, after Barry and Iris´ plan went wrong.

Once the first sob escapes her, she can´t stop. They just keep coming, broken and pained, her vision blurry from the tears she can´t keep inside anymore. She can cry like nobody can see her, once Barry´s asleep. She doesn´t have to be brave for his sake, she doesn´t have to remember that this is so much worse for him, and keep anything in in an attempt to make him feel better. The sobs keep on coming. Suddenly Barry squeezes her hand, and Iris stills. It´s warm and reassuring, and it´s exactly what Iris needs, even if she didn´t want him to notice her breakdown. “Barry?” her voice cracks a little, but the tears stop falling for a moment.

He doesn´t answer or even move, by all means he appears to still be asleep, apart from the increased pressure of his fingers against hers. Iris decides, she doesn´t care. Instead she scoots as close to him as she can, carefully pressing her face against his shoulder. She breathes out a shaky breath, and her eyes flutter shut. It´s okay, Barry is alive. Iris reminded herself. At least she had that.

[femslashagenda-blog]

it’s time, guys. let’s do this.

inspired by this post of which there are multiple versions

to try to get the word out I’m gonna mention...people who’ve commented in hopes of an event or prompts include @coldestflash  @drownedinlight @laurelmyqueen, post originally by @bisexualiriswest. @biracialhalsey has been involved. 

send in suggestions here or at my personal blog @spookygayjaneausten, make posts, tell me what you want from this event. I’ll reblog all the posts to this blog (or to an event-specific one if people think that’s a better idea), and make a masterlist of fanfiction at the lj community as well as a collection on ao3, inside this community’s main femslash one.

let’s get this going! with momentum and participation we can have a great event and narrow the gap between the numbers of slash and het works and the femslash works. many fabulous ladies on the show (and on arrow, supergirl, and more) to support and create fanwork about.

[techno-sorcerer]

Once you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly, then send this to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable) (positivity is cool)

1. I have been able to pull through a really tough time in my life (not completely unscathed, but pulling through)

2. I’m good at math, and give a pretty good dramatic reading of the co-product.

3. Even though they can always use improvement, I like my stories.

4. I like my distinctive laugh

5. I like my drawings zentangles.

(Also, to anyone who gets this from me, I’m a little iffy on the ‘have to’ portion. On one hand positivity is cool. On the other hand somebody coming into your inbox and forcing you to be positive seems less so. Maybe i’m overthinking this. I’m really tired. I will send them out later (perhaps modified *shrugs*).)

[lemonyandbeatrice]

I wrote a Cisco/Iris drabble so now there are two in the ao3 tag!

me tooooooo omg

[yalasyardeen]

It´s just really upsetting to really love an episode (which tbh I do on practically a weekly basis,) and then immediately go online to find about 50 people trying to belittle you or put you down for enjoying it.

Because, here´s the thing: I still enjoyed the episode. It just makes me feel bad for liking it.