#bitchshit

[chxsn1]

when i say bitchshit this what i mean

[chxsn1]

there's an auction for your girl and you only put down $500????

[jorasdottir]

I don't know if you need this but I wanted to send positive vibes your way, I don't follow gw2 community drama much but I understand you used to be toxic? I've followed your blog for roughly a year by this point now and all I've ever seen from you is a lot of positivity. I've seen you make a real effort to be happier, healthier, kinder, and a real positive force in the fandom! I'm sorry some ppl refuse to let go of who you were instead of seeing who you are now.

about three years ago, a divine combination of a bad relationship where i had to beg for attention combined with domestic violence in my life made me put on a mask on my blog where I would act like a child to get likes. for a long time, it worked and i got tons of friends. but they were friends with a fake persona of myself so they Ultimately left and i felt abandoned and alone again. then the constant hate flooded in, then the callouts. it made me super angry not at other people but at myself for allowing myself to act so unlike the real me for clout.

years later I'm still cancelled, any friends who choose to associate with me are blacklisted from the tag, and i have half as many friends as i did since I took a stand for myself and chose to fix the fucked up relationships i built from lies. i was really, truly, never like the woman i was presenting myself as in this fandom.

and to this day, im not even kidding, people still obsess over me like they're waiting for the next bomb to drop. i don't need their attention anymore- i ignore the suicide baiting altogether. people have a constant eye on what i do and say on here. on my blog! this is my house! like, they hate me so much but they look at me constantly! never leave me alone! they hate the fake me that was on here for 2 years tops and as a result im banished forever! my friends careers that looked promising on here? gone by association! their followers and notes? bye bye!

its creepy. its just creepy. every word i make on this blog is monitored.

i rarely get messages like this. most of them are trolls, and shitty ones at that. ive been spat and kicked on steadily for the last few years on here, and I've just been living my life. as a result of it these kinds of asks stick out as sore thumbs which gives me a little glimmer of hope that not everybody out there is out to get me.

i hope that answers that- and thank you for your time and message. it really does cut back on the pain. it does

[jorasdottir]

supposed gw2 fandom dickheads that wont leave me alone moodboard

[jorasdottir]

ive been stalked on this hellsite for three solid years. literally. people have been obsessing over me for three. years. ive been here much longer than that but it's only these three years have i been monitored like ive been under house arrest. do you have any idea how fucking exhausting that is lol

people have opinions. it sucks sometimes but you can move on.

[jorasdottir]

ive said it once and I'll say it again but what is the point or benefit of posting character hate, in a tag no less? just to show everyone youre an annoying shitstain? lol you can engage with the fandom on easier, non narcissistic terms yknow...

[jorasdottir]

also if you send me anon hate and shit specifically complaining about how open i am about changing myself as a newer, better person then i want you to know your mom is disappointed in you. we talked last night

[jorasdottir]

people acting so surprised that all the gw2 content creators stopped Making Content when all thats been given to them is the shittiest fandom response to said content just gets me. like no the issue isnt so much reblogging now, its that everybody in this tag hates each other and 2% actively support repeatedly shitty people. so like.. naawwwwww dude im staying in my lane.

and like rip to anyone reading this who still thinks im mean- i broke up with the asshole i was dating so im -peace sign- a happy, nice person again. so like. winning.

(personal note but my cs reviews have jumped through the roof because of that same life changing great decision so im glad im not chronically depressed like i was with them lol)