was super distracted at work today
usually my binder is fine as long as i take it off when i get home, and get (my roommate’s) heating pad on it, but every once in a while my entire rib cage is a single dull ache, and if i move too suddenly, it reminds me of the time i popped my shoulder out while trying to hold a door open.
today was one of those days
luckily, it’s cold, so i’ve been carrying a sweater in my bag recently, and i just wandered over to the bathroom and re-remembered how to breathe.
i’m glad no one noticed. the conversation of “this hurts you and you know it’s, long-term, pretty damaging, why do you still wear this”, is a conversation i continue to not want to have, even in the hypothetical, especially not at work, even if I Am out, even if I’m literally working on a class about gender for work.