#bleak bell

[winniebell]

I hate the cycle ❣️❣️❣️

[winniebell]

literally need it all to stop lol

[winniebell]

bro I hate when the cycle actually repeats bro

[winniebell]

the first things to come up when searching pictures of Lebanon should not be explosions, should not be clouds of smoke, should not be buildings bombed half out of existence.

[winniebell]

i’m gonna be so honest guys i’m in such a terrible place rn I don’t know if i’ll make it to fall ❣️❣️❣️

[winniebell]

*rocking myself in fetal position on the floor* it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon it will be winter soon

[winniebell]

things that have happened today:

- had a dentist appointment (HATE the dentist)

- had an eye appointment (this was fine)

- found out my sort of uncle is currently homeless (unclear on details of this)

- dad got fired (my mom doesn’t currently work)

- realized I scheduled my birthday party on the last day i’m up at a cabin with friends (I can’t drive so I either have to make my parents drive 4+ hours to get me and bring me back or make all my friends leave early in the day)

- made the deans list at my college (hurray)

- got an evil evil email reminding me about a support group that is the reason I left my last therapist (cried about that at like 9am)

[winniebell]

ora por mi!!!! voy a suicidarme!!!!!!!