Dec 30, 2025
I actually like strawberries more tbh
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I actually like strawberries more tbh
Well i changed my name slightly and tumblr broke. It's now displaying my art page's profile picture on my main, at least on my end. If I'm a forest dragon atm, I'm not supposed to be lol...
Not brave enough to exist here until I finish deltarune....
I'll be a bit longer lol
Heya, the transmedicalists did indeed reject my application. They control the only legal path to hormones in Norway, outside of Oslo. And they're horrible. They'll reject people as a rule and make people wait for years regardless. Being autistic makes it nearly impossible to get thru also, as far as I've heard
So yeah, that's just kinda it. I'm just left out in the cold i guess. So i get to DIY, yay...
I'm so fucking scared. I've been panicked for days. And it's not going away. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to do any of this. I can't get anti androgens, everything i can find is pills and customs will murder me if i try. Isn't monotherapy like bad or worse? Idk. Even if i get more discreet gels and shit, they'll eventually stop enough of them to flag me and control everything i ever order. And then, i have nothing. No path. No way forwards. Nothing at all.
I can't live as a woman without. And i can't live as a man for one more god damn second of my existence. I don't know what to do. My thoughts haven't cleared at all no matter how much time i give it.
Do i just move to Oslo at this point? They at least HAVE a system that somewhat works. But they can only take Oslo residents and only people under 30. I can't really afford to live there, and i have no network. But hormones are life and death at this point, so no obstacles is really too great.
I want to get started with DIY asap too, but it feels so fucking high stakes. Wrong vendor? Poisoned! Die! Not discreet enough? Oh, no hormones then, criminal. Ever. Die.
One shot buddy... make it count! Oh and keep making it count for the rest of your life. Over and over and over again...
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Anyway, thanks for putting up with my rants. If anyone has any info on how to not get fucked by customs and the like, I'd appreciate it
Fuck i scrolled all the way down to my previous session and my buss is still like 30 minutes away... Tumblr you have failed me again!
February is over so i can come back. Uh, hi i guess
Oh hi. Yes im still alive. Just eternally busy...
I'll be back for real some time :P
went for a run today. don't think I've fully realized how bad a shape i'm in before this. I used to exercise regularly but haven't in years now. My body remembers being in much better shape and is trying to run like I could before, so yeah, I almost fainted, because I'm dumb and refuse to acknowledge my limitations
If I can kill the dumb mindset that I'm a weakling if I stop to catch my breath before I've run X laps, and I can keep at it, this should be my lowest point physically. And, having recovered a bit now, I feel good!