Aug 29, 2022
Mmmfmmnnmmmmmworter
#we are speedrunning feelings of failure and grieving and suffering#like#i feel like I'm in an emotional wormhole between shock and numbness and acceptance#preparing to teach my first first day of school#i KNOOOOOW its going to be fine.#and still my materials are not fully complete (yall I'm using fucking Trello 😭 of my own accord thats how lost I am)#my room is neither complete nor at a point that is ready for students to come in#we keep walking one step at a time... falling forward#GOOOOODDDDD pain suffering dread like#i need therapy LMAO girl I KNOWWW this is irrational and I'm being goofy and whatever#it doesnt have to be perfect no one's asking or expecting perfection#am I batting below expectations? perhaps. but they're supporting me still.#FUCK AND I KNOW there are worse teachers than me 😭 but can I be a Good teacher?#also i Know I'm a good teacher... but i dont feel like a good teacher lmao. or feel like I act like a good teacher or do the administrative#things a good teacher does#craaawling in my skinnnnnnnn#booboop