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8. Summarize the last film/TV episode you watched.

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14 & 15

14. What is your favorite word?

15. What is your least favorite word?

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You're such a fucking piece of trash. Not only do you interrupt an argument between Castian and Andrius, but you're fucking mad that he won't fuck you? How desperate are you to have Gar-Tei sleep with just about every single fucking person here? You say you don't smut on Tumblr but damn you sound pretty thirsty.

(( You know, I had a lot of different angles to take on this. A lot of ways I wanted to address this. I wanted to do this in character, really, I did.

And the saddest thing is, it boils down to one thing.

MOD =/= CHARACTER

Like, that’s it. That’s really it. I, as the writer, rather enjoyed that Gar-Tei had a friendship that is now questionable and rocky because, fun fact about life, you learn things about people and your opinions of them can change.

I love Andrius-mun. We made “canonical” things out of “crack”, and they’ve been nothing but pleasant. Not only did they want me involved in something that was character-changing for Andrius (and, as a writer, to have someone else want me to participate in something that changes their character forever is perhaps one of the biggest honours I can hope to achieve as a Roleplay blog), but I have no ill will towards them for this development, whatsoever.

MOD != CHARACTER

Andrius, as a character, has no intention of ever sleeping with any of the beast races. And that’s 110% A-OK with me. With Gar? He’s still maybe partially hopeful (well, less now, considering the recent outburst), but as a writer I understand that difference so much. A lot of things Gar does or says or holds to his morals are not things I share.

How do you not understand this?

Like, that’s the first point about RP’ing on Tumblr.

MOD is not interchangeable with CHARACTER. They do not share a single letter.

Gar-Tei, character wise, thought of Andrius as a friend. Maybe not the closest, but a friend nonetheless. And he also loves Castian, and understands that Castian wants to still be on his own with other people. He’s okay with that.

What he’s not okay with is people refusing Castian because of him. It brings up questions about Argonian inferiority in his mind. It’s like he’s sullied Castian for being with him and he wants Castian to have everything. To have someone he thought was a close friend turn Castian was really hurt.

Oh. I’m sorry. Is that you being speechless from a character having some fucking depth beyond their namesake?

And while he’s always joking with Andrius about setting him up with a beastman, let’s look at some details. Gar-Tei dwarfs the man, outclasses him physically, and really, if he really, really wanted to, he could force himself on Andrius. But he didn’t. In fact, he’s never even thought about that. He respectsAndrius’ decision. That doesn’t mean he can’t be hurt by it, but he respects that.

Another fun fact of life: Acceptance doesn’t mean having to agree with something. My parents accept that I’m gay. They don’t agree with it. Get it yet?

No?

How about you come off of Anon. Really. I’d love to have a discussion (read: discussion. Not argument. Not debate. Not a talking to. To have an open forum. Discussion.) on Gar-Tei. Even something as simple as a couple quick posts can, and should have given you some more depth into the character.

So please. Don’t call me thirsty. I have many chances to take things smutty on Tumblr. I can easily just take logs and post smut RP logs on Tumblr. But I don’t. And that’s my choice. You calling me thirsty isn’t exactly an insult. Gar-Tei is a creature who has been shipped with a number of people, and considering he’s multi-ship, it probably won’t end there.

Seriously. Relationships happen. Another fun fact of life.

If you want to keep sending me hate or aggressive messages like this, so be it. I won’t even turn off Anon for you, so you can continue to hide behind your little wall of shame. Since you can’t openly talk to me about it (and at this point, you probably shouldn’t, since that only means you’re admitting to not understanding the main point of this entire argument), I’ll let you have a bit of a one-up on the playing field.

By the way.

Mod =/= Character.

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☑ :>

☑ What are the biggest differences between you and your muse?

Other than that he’s an eight foot tall, super hunky, lizard-man creature that knows magic and fights with weapons, has no soul, and eats a ridiculous amount of foo-

Wait, scratch that last part. I do that too.

Probably intelligence. Gar-Tei is a hell of a lot more “street-smart” than I’d like to claim I am, but he’s pretty terrible when it comes to academics.

It’s also probably his determination. He has his three goals to accomplish and no matter what he does, those goals are always within sight. I’m human. I make mistakes. Sometimes I lose sight of those goals because I’m distracted or life’s just hard and instead of aiming for the end of the week I just want this bloody hour to end, kind of thing.

Oh. Gar’s also a pimp and has various dork boyfriends. I’m single. :>

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What is the most challenging aspect of playing this muse?

☏ What is the most challenging aspect of playing this muse?

Gar is a simple person. He has simple thoughts and wishes and needs and desires. He doesn’t overthink a lot of things.

I on the other hand, do. I’m constantly calculating this and that and if something is okay or if I should or shouldn’t do something. Stepping into Gar’s shoes is basically throwing away a lot of self-questioning and anxiety I’ve had to grow up with over the years. It’s liberating, but difficult.

Another thing is making him believable. While yes, he’s from a fictional video game universe and yes, you can do things like hold sixty sets of armour or eat 1000 sacks of flour within a second to heal yourself, I try not to bring mechanics and numbers so literally in representations.

So he’s super gigantic (read: sliders set all the way to maximum muscle and height and size and booty) but he’s not macro-sized. He eats a lot of food but he’s not a black hole (although I take a lot of liberty with how much he eats. I basically estimate he eats enough for a family of four), and his feats of strength are probably outside of the average spectrum (and maybe even above average human spectrum), but within the bounds of his physical constraints. He might be able to shoulder bash through a door and break it, but that door isn’t flying off and becoming a projectile.

See what I mean about overthinking things? XD

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(Who was your first muse, what is the easiest aspect of playing this muse)

유 Who was your first character?

Oh gosh.

I actually remember him.

His name was Nerbolim Delenthrial (Don’t ask. His first name was supposed to be Milo Brennan backwards but Nannerb was stupid.). He was an elf from the MMO Tibia way back when (is that even still around?). He grew up as the elder brother to his sister Misara, and they both entered the school of magic (I forgot what I called it). He specialized in more arcane, destructive magic and she was a healer; but he befriended a Ranger named Gwidion Galathil and eventually gave up the sorceror life in order switch over to be a Ranger.

Side note: I randomly found this when I looked up my old character’s name. 2006. Wow. I was 16 when I wrote in this thread, and that was about 4 years after I’d started on these forums. I read through some of my old stuff and by god was I ever bad (and overpowered, and controlled other people’s characters a lot), but we all start somewhere!

Also, your eyes do not deceive you. Our threads were hundreds of pages, thousands of posts, and spanned months. They were so involved I often spoke of them at school to my friends.

✌ What is the easiest aspect of playing this muse?

The easiest aspect is probably Gar’s silliness. His carefree, lackadaiscal, “Don’t care had sex” kind of attitude that he has. Because it’s not a question of me ignoring what someone else writes or posts, but I ask one main question.

Does this development affect Gar-Tei personally? Yes? React. No? Don’t care, had sex.

He’s so nonchalant about things that I can basically write down what I think, and don’t have to worry about “Is that okay or acceptable or social norm” because he doesn’t care about that kind of stuff. It’s all very personal and direct to the character, so there’s little worry of me straying too far. When I overthink things, that’s when I’ve gone too far from his roots.

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❥ How long have you been RPing this character?

April 6th, 2014 was the first post I made on Tumblr about Gar. So 3 months and 8 days.

And while I definitely had Gar-Tei in mind as a character I never really fleshed him out to the point I did then. He was made because I started ESO and it basically gave me a reason to really get into his details. 3 month old, gigantic goof bab.

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♚ Do you and your character get along?

Yes and no. Because we’re so alike I think Gar-Tei knows me inside and out. And considering I’ve imagined him, I know all his workings too. So I know what makes him tick and often put him into situations that make him feel awkward or hurt (Bring on the angst!), but at the same time I indulge him with happiness and what he was made to be, so there’s a balance.

He also doesn’t keep me up at night with questions about why the hell I put him through what I do, so it’s nice. I like sleep.