#brandedfaithfully

[brandedfaithfully]

Let’s play a game. “What’s going on now?!”

I haven’t slept through the night in 4 days. I’ll go to bed around 10/10:30 and I’ll wake up around 3.

I haven’t had any kind of an appetite in those 4 days and I’ve been mainly eating for appearances.

I’ve also feel like every little sound is annoying and I’m getting very agitated when people touch me.

I’m about to start a show run that goes through to Christmas Eve and I will be working 16 hour days for weeks.

I am over it.

[brandedfaithfully]

Why is it that every time I start talking to a guy, we invariably start talking about jobs. Now working in theatre I don’t have a 9-5 schedule. We all know that. So does someone want to tell me why half the guys I talk to seem to think that I have to make time to give them attention. I know relationships are about balance and all that shit but why does it seem like I’m the only one who would have to give up something? I love my job. I love what I do. And yes the hours are grueling and I love my time off but I’m not going to go out of my way to make sure a full grown adult gets affirmation from me everyday.

Yeah. I’m tired of being single. But I’m not going to give up on something that I have worked this hard for. If you want someone to give you constant attention, go look for a trophy wife somewhere else.

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The universe is just being rude now

So not only am I falling behind in the show I'm working on (cause a crew of 2 people for 26 people is a great idea) but now the universe is just laughing at me. The designer and I have been fighting with actors who are trying to overstep and now...my designer fell down her stairs yesterday and now this morning my dogs knocked me down my stairs and now I'm limping....really don't need it

[brandedfaithfully]

So Yesterday at Intermission of Hamilton

My mom turns to me and says "the music is really energetic but I won't leave here singing or remembering what they sing" And what do I hear this morning as she's in the shower? "You'll be back, soon you'll see...." Alright mom. If you say so

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I'm at the point where I've been getting to bed so late for the past few days that when I finally have a night where I'm in bed before midnight my body freaks out and won't let me sleep....and now all I can do is lay in bed, scroll through tumblr and think....