me
I'm that quiet person that sits in the front of the class instead of the back. I'm that person that you still wouldn't notice even if i was gone for a day, even though i sit in the front. I'm that person that carries that weight on my shoulders for all friends and family. I'm that person that sits quietly in the lunch room listening to music and drawing that you don't even pay attention to, if you do you give mean dirty looks. I'm that person who relies on their music that everyone hates to listen to because its "emo". I'm that person you wouldn't give to second glances toward because of the way i dress. I'm that person who gets judge by their own parents, strangers, and ex-friends. I'm that person that if i dropped my books in the hallway you wouldn't help pick them up but instead kick them across the hall. I'm that freak that dresses in black from head to toe. I'm that so called slut, that's a virgin. I'm that person that cares. I'm that person that a human being and cares about what you think and everyone else does. I may not care now but when i get home what ever you or them said i replay it in my head. I'm a person, a human, someone who cares that you don't care about. I'm that person that when you joke about bulling, self harm, or eating disorders that wants to bitch slap you because they've been through that themselves many time. I'm that person that gets really quiet when upset or hurt and you wont even look at. I'm that daughter that has to dress how there parents want her to when they go out in public because they're ashamed of what others will think of them on how those people see me dressed. I'm the one who sticks up for people like me that you yell at and call names. I'm that student that teachers underestimate when i first walk into the room. I'm that student that you would think i would be failing high school. I'm that student thats not given second chances to prove them self to teachers when i do fail. I'm that student that if you tell me that, you didn't first see me being successful in your class when i first walked in, that takes that as let down because you didn't believe in me. I'm that student that if i were to be failing your class you wouldn't help. I'm that student that get put down by some teachers that doesn't believe in her. I'm that daughter that get into it with her parents over music. I'm that daughter that want to let go of what she has but you can't so therefore i can't either. I'm that person that finds out about things about you and you've never told me or you've kept from me. I'm that person who cares more about music and a few friends more then a thousand fake ones. I'm that one person who thinks there's something wrong with them when they can't get a boyfriend or girlfriend and you can. I'm that person who has low-self of steam, get put down by their family, by anyone who looks at me, till people really find out who i am they wouldn't even bother looking at, that has a brother and they barley talk to each other even if he knows whats happened in that past but he doesn't make an effort to make up for what he has done. I'm that daughter,student,friend,stranger,freak, so called slut,bitch,cunt,whore, that person not given the chance to put i'm in impossible, to be believed in, to have a chance to walk away from all the pain. To find who they are inside and to rise up and celebrate their life and to sing for what they feel inside. To know the truth, to blame them self, to hold the key to the kingdom, to lost it all. To become faithless. To have the heart of fire. To stand above the rest. To sit above one million branches when i love everyone. To run wild and free, to spread their wings and learn to fly. To sit and wish a pond their deathbed. What doesn't kill me makes me was i was dead. That the silence is defending. That hopes you smile when you look down on me. I'm that person, this is me, i'm not okay and its not all right so who will fix me now darling when i'm down. I'm that one person who listens to music to get threw the day. Music is the blood that runs through my vanes. That music is the air i breath. That music their music is hated on and will define the only that makes them happy. You may be that person you probably wouldn't even want read this to find out about how i feel right about life.