I don't get this world, I don't get people(I may sound like a hypocrite) , and I don't get why I live. Like I get blamed for something I didn't touch, I get yelled at for messing up on accident, I get s*** for things that didn't even happen, this world is so weird. While this happens, I want my best friend to be there for me 2when I need it. Things are tough however, he's busy with other things, he's busy with videos, and he's busy with his life. Sometimes I don't get it, why does this happen to me? I get a best friend older than me and I knew it was inevitable we would cross paths soon. But why do I let that happen to myself. I dont get why I did this to myself. I knew it was inevitable he would be busy and I would be out of the picture. I knew I was gonna be on the side, I knew I wasn't gonna be able to see him much. Still why do I do this? It all started after I was saved from God, that's how it started. As he was there for me and hung out, I felt our bond grew stronger and stronger. I felt our emotions were close to one. Then he graduated that's when things changed. Sometimes I question it, I'm in need right now, I feel so weak, I feel so uneasy, I feel so down, this two weeks Is gonna be hell on me. If someone is out there please pray for me that I will be ok and that I will be able to be with my best friend, or hopefully I will be able to have someone there for me at least.