Who kissed who first, Bucky or Steve?
He’s been in love with his best friend for as long as he can remember.
He loved him even when they were kids, telling his ma he was gonna marry Bucky someday, and looking dejected whenever she politely told him that boys marrying boys wasn’t allowed. He felt a little better though when she grabbed his tiny hand, held it close, and told him “You’re allowed to love him, though. It’s okay to love him.”
And when they became adolescents, he watched Bucky grow, blossom into an even more beautiful fella. HIS fella, he’d let himself imagine. He’d let the fantasy go so far as to imagine himself caring for Bucky, having dinner ready when he got home from a long, hard day at work. He’d keep the house clean, since he couldn’t work due to the asthma and the hearing and the colorblindness. But he could be a good little housewife for Bucky if he’d let him.
He’d wrap a hand around his dick and work himself to the thought, stroking and rubbing just right while he imagined touching his best friend the same way. He’d be sure to do a good job so Bucky’d let him do it again and again. He’d even get down on his knees for him. Yeah, and then his pace on his own length would increase because he’d be dying for a taste.
And then, when Steve’s ma passed and Bucky became adamant about Steve living with him, “Till the end of the line” and all that, his heart swelled so big. He was nervous, because how could he be around Bucky so much and not be able to touch? To know what his skin really felt like in all the places he’d want to touch?
And then, one night, they go out dancing, have some drinks. They walk their dates home and get back to their little place and more drinks are shared between them. Bucky has a smoke dangling from his fingers and his skin is glowing that beautiful, blushy-drunk glow and Steve, the poor guy, isn’t able to help himself. He just leans in, just lets himself have a taste, thinking that if Bucky gets mad he can just blame it on the liquor. It’s fool-proof.
Except, Bucky kisses him back. It’s wild and messy and perfect, his calloused hands working their way around Steve’s smooth face, dancing along his sharp jawline. Steve hums with surprise, and when his brain catches up with what’s happening, he faints.