I feel like I’m just waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Red flags are here & they aren’t going away. I’m constantly having to correct him on how the fuck to speak to me. Like, there’s no respect. One day he will praise me beyond comparison & the next (or hours later) he’s saying or doing some certified dumb ass shit & i get so hurt because it’s usually some stupid joke at my expense, or just blatantly diminishing me, like my opinion is meaningless or like I don’t make sacrifices too. The opinion is usually the correct answer, not to toot my own horn. But fuck it, i fucking will.
My intuition is fucking brilliant. I have ignored it for far too long now. I refuse to give my power away to someone who refuses to speak to me with dignity & love, or even do the barest of minimum habit changes to prevent my bodily pain. Nope, I’m just nagging. Bitching. Complaining. I’ve heard the same exact responses from previous partners, and in the end of *those* relationships, well, it wasn’t pretty anyway.
So now i am working in EARNEST to build my business from the ground up. I have signed on with Tap Stitch to create a fashion collection drawn by my own little fingers. Requests are always welcome, and if it sparks my imagination I’ll run with it! And I’ve signed up with Big Cartel to operate the website side of stuff. It should all link up with my Etsy shop & ta-da!
I also want to possibly create specific collections for charities or causes i feel passionately about. And i would loooove to collab with folks who like my art style and love a cause that i may not even be aware of! There are so many. While that’s unfortunate to think about, it’s also proof that people DO care!!! And I’m fucking here for it, so let’s do the damn thing. I’ll add the link to my shop once it goes live, but it’ll be heavily centered around my “art” name - Southern Plumage.
Might possibly do some Patreon stuff, behind-the-scenes type exclusives, maybe even lives idk, I’ve gotta research Patreon’s options there. So yeah. I guess I’ll go make some social media posts about plans and moves…but not too much info. Gotta keep some stuff close to the chest.
If anyone reads these…wish me luck 🍀
