Aug 12, 2022
sometimes i think ‘yknow it’s been like three years i should probably be over this by now’ and take one step off my dash into whatever the hs fandom is doing
only for something to slip past my blacklist and immediately send my anxiety off the walls
#i feel like i've admitted it before but to reiterate#it's like 99% because of dirk#he wasn't the only one who got fucked of course and arguably not even the worst#like sometimes i see davebot or rosebot and it's whatever#they're fun designs i just don't like the context#but DIRK#my heart starts pounding and that sense of utter dread just shoots through my chest and arms#like nothing physically happens but it just feels like instead of blood you've got liquid PANIC pumping through your body?#i've kinda realized that when the epilogues were released i had just gotten through an incredibly stressful time in my life#and there was still stress but different stress?#i'm still not sure how it all came together to illicit my still ongoing reaction#but i feel a tad less stupid over having such a reaction over fiction#over a guy who wears a hat on his shirt so it won't mess up his hair#see this is why twitter sucks you can't just ramble in the tags#hs
