#by pixieanvas

[pixieanvas]

Numb

You are the reason, that I started fading you know

You are the feeling that makes me feel alone,

inside out, I am complete but do I care when you can't see me

So leaving them all, I will be free

Because I have someone to catch me if I fall or go live in another dream

Even if he is gone, I have him

He is my light in the dark, he is my everything

Making me strong, every moment of this

I know I can survive it all, it's you who can't see

You don't need to know how it feels cause I am numb and it's not pinching me

Thanks for making my wish come true, thank you for eveything ;) :)

[pixieanvas]

After a while I realised that the most powerful and challenging yet the most silent battle is inside of us. It can give us a new day or end it, sometimes well.

- certain times teach everything and we should learn to hold on.

[pixieanvas]

When he said forever, he meant it. What changed it, has always been a mystery.

Umm, lonely times.

[pixieanvas]

Not every memory is painful, not every memory brings joy. It’s in our hands to end things better so that the last memory that we carry of that thing has on regret and no lie. 

- My brain inspired by the quote.

 - Thanks for submitting the picture. :)

[pixieanvas]

Is it really Freedom?

Every day is passing

coming closer to the freedom

I have always wanted, but it still seems far

I am not feeling the fear 

but I know I will when it’s close

the time of my departure

leaving my people behind, sailing, I am on board

i will have all the happiness

all the adventure, I have been waiting for

my freedom can give everything,

but it cannot buy me a home.

it’s like i am happy but still I am sad

I have chosen this, and I am just glad

at my bravery, to follow my dreams

I know where I will land, it’s my destiny.

“Freedom, has it’s cost

nothing is free, not even a free bird

It still searches around for food and a place called home.

we can fly as high as we want

taking sails, we wished to 

But we too want solace and peace in someone’s arms or in our own dreams, which are left undisturbed while we sleep, roaming around will make us tired too, that’s why freedom, it’s not free, it makes us crave for things that we always wanted by our side, our family.”

[pixieanvas]

This is the Wind’s Message

Will I be spared

 If I ask?

Of the things,

You don’t want.

To tell anyone,

Hiding it, that’s enough!

Baby, just come out. I will wait, 

For your hand,

Are you in, despair?

Come and tell,

I will make all the promises,

Baby, and leave you back, where you were.

I will carry it to a distant place,

You don’t know about, 

So, don’t be scared.

No one will ever know,

The stories of the swings,

When I felt your fear,

Out of everything,

Baby, you will be with me, even in a distant place.

This is the wind’s message, oh oh

This is the wind’s message.

Yeah the one that touches your face,

This is my message.

Don’t worry, just be like salt,

Being carried in waterfall,

You will be better than you were,

Will be flying, oohhh…..

Yeah, just look here, you beautiful,

Being carried in arms, of the cool,

Breeze blowing your hairs,

Making you feel so happy out there,

Baby, I will love you, even if you cut me off,

So, don’t worry, just let it go.

This is the wind’s message,

This is the wind’s message,

ya, right the one that keeps you safe,

This is your friend’s message.

Try to feel me, 

Try to feel me,

So that I can heal you,

Just be with me.

You can leave me,

You can leave me,

But just don’t kill me,

Always, be brave.

This is the wind’s message, ooh oh

This is the wind’s message

The one that keeps you fresh in all those days

This is the wind’s message.

[pixieanvas]

I got you

Everywhere, everytime

You crawl into my mind

This isn't fair, though it isn't a crime

Still, you don't need to be there

Many times zones away, our heart still beating the same rate

I can't hear you, you can't hear me

But we can listen to each other's feelings

Is this how love feels? Is this how you feel in my heart?

Is this how it's supposed to be? Or am I making you more important than you should be?

Tell me. Cause I got you in my mind, all time.

Because it's getting deeper, with passing clock. I don't want to get hurt when it's over, I don't wanna leave you behind.

I get hurt, when I feel that you have got something in your head, you want to hide.

I get hurt when your time is passing in another world, not mine.

I get hurt when you leave me alone, but ain't your fault, I understand you.

But, don't leave me when I need you, I die the same time.

I feel you, I feel my life, I feel everyone, this ain't right

Taken for granted, it's my fault, I cared a lot about everyone, giving myself no time.

So, I want to jump in to my life. Living upto my needs, I don't care what the world wants

Living alone, that's my life, but I am satisfied. Just need you to keep yourself, till I will be back in to my life.

Don't hurt me, we are enough. This all I have got to say.

I am dying inside slowly because of everyone, because of me. Save yourself, it's better, I will save myself, until I die, until I rest in peace.

- It's wrong to not think about yourself, doesn't matter if you do it for someone you love, if you keep your heart and their's together, never gonna hurt you. Love is not about forgetting yourself to keep others. It's about loving yourself, so that they love you and keep each other together.

[pixieanvas]

And then happened

I did fall, I did regret, then I made my way to you,

I was awake, but in a dream when I felt you,

And when sleep came over faster than I thought,

And when I saw it break, this dream,

Then I got to know I was asleep,

All this was imagination, conspicous sort of infatuation

I woke up, got ready.

And then happened another morning, bringing in the light I was now walking in

Some where there was autumn, some where spring

Rain was coming closer, I didn't had anything

But this time when it passed me I was happy,

For atleast I was walking through me,

This time not lost, this time more strong,

This time I knew there's no need to break the wall,

Just pass by it and leave it.

Just leave it.

- Sometimes it's important to leave it and let it happen even if it costs you your everything. Why? Maybe it isn't that important just your amygdala playing with you ;)