EPHEMER TO LAURIAM: ❛ remember me once in a while — please promise me you'll try. ❜
Phantom of the Opera Ask Meme
“Ephemer…” The name feels like a ghost on his lips, sucking the life from him the moment he dares to speak it. How… he looks just like the boy in his memories, barely even aged a single day. How long has it been since Lauriam has said his name, since he has seen him?
Where was he all this time? And to speak such words to him now? It kindles something in Lauriam’s gut. A quiet rage that nearly erupts from every pour in his skin. He grits his teeth, canines biting into his lip.
“How dare you ask that…!” Lauriam suddenly shouts, both of his hands tightening into fists. “How dare you, after we all promised that we would see each other again! Where was Ven, where was Skuld and Brain!? And where were you!?”
“I woke up alone, with no memory of anything, and all of you were gone. Do you know how long I spent wandering in a haze? With the sense that there was something unfinished, that I could not recall no matter how hard I tried!?”
Their promises to each other before they had boarded their lifeboats, their arcs to bring them to the next world flashed in his mind, their faces, their voices, everything that Lauriam had lost! Everything that his mind had left him bereft of!
But…it wouldn’t have mattered if they had been there, would it? Elrena—Larxene, had been at his side the whole time. His partner in crime, the one who had helped him so diligently in his search for Strelitzia, who had found him again in the Organization twice…
And he had remembered nothing.
A mirror image of Ven had been before him.
Lauriam’s nails were biting into the flesh of his palm now, and he heaved a large sigh. All around him, patches of healthy grass began to wither and die.
“I wanted to remember you more than anything in the entire world…” he said, his voice falling to a quiet hush again. “And now, I hardly trust my memories to stay at all.”
Ever since his memories returned, Lauriam’s thoughts had grown easily scattered. At times, it was like his heart was trapped in a fog, unable to fully connect to what was going on around him. He could barely remember these moments, important dates would escape him, tasks would be left uncompleted.
Sometimes it felt as if his entire reality were a lie, and he struggled to remember which of the two lives he was supposed to be living.
Perhaps he deserved as much. After all, hadn’t he tried to strip the memories of a young boy away, layer by cruel layer? Hadn’t he tried to inflict the exact same agony onto another, at the expense of a young girl’s misery? He hadn’t had the capacity to care at the time, but even if he had, wouldn’t he have just dismissed it by saying that neither did she?
But, even if these memory issues that still plagued him were the lingering curse of a witch… didn’t Ephemer deserve remembrance? It was so difficult to untangle everything, what he deserved or other people deserved from him…
“The world has made me into a cruel man, Ephemer. I have made myself into one. I remember you now, I swear it. But… please…”
“There are better men to carry your legacy.”