i mourn every moment i never got to live
and every experience I haven't had
second hand nostalgia for the simple moments
probably worse but filled with an emotion
that i can't capture living as i am
in a decade of influencers and fire
and on the verge of an apocalypse i wish
i could take a step back and live
the lives of people just slightly older
i want to wait for my internet to dial up
i want to watch anime in eight parts an episode at 240p on a youtube that doesn't give a shit
i want to listen to my radio slowly descend into static as i drive out of town
i want to stalk a something awful forum, too broke to post anything
and your saying, those who did these things, that I don't, that its harder or worse
but thats why i want it
theres a texture there, an emotion that i can almost feel some nights as i listen to music on my hand-me-down ipod
or watch an amv that my sister grew up on
and i revel in that moment of small anachronism
and when its over try to be okay with letting it go