Words hurt more than fists when they speak the truth
I feel it in my body and you see it in my eyes
The hate that threatens to betray me
My hands are balled up, shaking in pain
You tell me they shake because I’m weak
You’re wrong
They shake in fear
Fear of how much power they hold
But my mouth moves first
The words come out like silk
Filled with words of truth and regret
The words come back
This time I feel the pain
Truth dawns and reality rears its ugly face
I fought this battle before
I can’t lose
Otherwise
You’ll never learn
I will not cry
I will not back down
I will not… Because I can’t
The strength I have won’t allow it
Neither will yours
I know we look alike
Two bodies, two souls, one downfall
She’s grown up
She’s grown strong
You didn’t even notice
Can you see it now?
Who I’ve grown to be?
Your words they hurt
But they are only words
I wasn’t afraid
I never was
You raised me this way
To shun my fears
I step to the other side
My entrance is shut
Before I go down, I think to myself
You think you’re angry
Betrayed
Sad
And alone, because of me
I hope you realize
You’re wrong
Because I
Am just like you…
…Mother
Mommy I’m sorry
I am your punishment
A blessing in your eyes
A punishment in reality
Mommy I’m sorry
I was born to show you…
…Yourself.