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let the record show Cat is still a butthead

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also on a personal note on my whole bout with mini-depression (I guess that's the best I can call it)

look I hate being sad, and I hate visibly being sad, sometimes I just can't help it

a lot of people get surprised when they see me so beat up and junk

even at work, everyone agrees that I'm the most upbeat cashier they have who shows the most enthusiasm, so they're all shocked when they see me having a rough time

so...I tend to try and cover it up by being all boisterous and laugh alot and be derp and junk, but sometimes I can't

well

right now I'm just simply trying to get over it, and what happened

in short, the breakup

no big surprise, Cat and I "broke up"

and, well, I guess despite everything I kept trying to say, I didn't really get over it, what with a lot of other personal IRL problems piling up with it, so it sorta just overwhelmed me

yeah, it's going to hurt, but it happens, and it sucks, but what can I do?

I'm not going to let it get to me, not like a few years back (another story for another time)

it was fun, it was great, it was fantastic and more

but I suppose there were just too many factors against it and they eventually piled up, and in the end, it just didn't work out

am I sad, yes

will I let it destroy me though? no

what I'm going to do is still be friends with her because in the end, she's still my best friend. it may not feel like it right now, but I still feel like I can trust her with damn near anything, and I hope she realizes she can do the same with me

I'm not mad

I'm not bitter

and I refuse to become either

I'll let her have her space and in due time, I'm hoping we can talk again, like before, before all this nonsense, when we were just friends, like old times, because those times were some of the best

In the end I want her to be happy, and if she finds that happiness, that's great.

I'll still be friends, and that's all that matters right now

so that's that really

no more mopey bullshit

all the hate anon stuff I've simply been deleting and not letting it get to me anymore

they can think what they want

but it doesn't matter

I know I've still got one of my best friends in her, and that's what does matter

thanks to those that have supported me when I've been nothing but a mopey mess, and I hope to stop being like that now and be back to my normal self

and again, I don't hate her, and I hope she doesn't hate me

I know there's nothing wrong with me, or with her, we just unfortunately didn't mesh as well as we'd thought, and that's okay

so yeah

that's the end of the matter, eh?

cheers

-Andrew

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also on a completely random note

I finally understand the joys of not having to wear pants

Cat and Scyll had the right idea all along

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MY GIRLFRIEND IS THE BIGGEST BUTTHEAD EVER OH MY FUCKING GOD

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first 5 minutes of this call

both of us are just babbling nonsensically to each other

yes, we are mature adults, why do you ask?

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HEY! HEY CAT!

WORTH IT <3

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don't ship them

don't ship them

don't ship them

DON'T SHIP THEM

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FUCK

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Cat *after I steal a kill*: YOU CUNT!

Me *playing Katarina*: I believe it's prounounced "Kat"