#cerk.txt

[cerkowah]

saw a post abt the homoerotic smoke breaks between Henry and Will. yeah. yeah

I hc that Henry only smoked with William as a sort of compromise. It was something that forced them both to take breaks from working so it was "good" even tho Henry didn't actually enjoy it much. William on the other hand wouldn't be caught dead without a cigarette

Henry stopped smoking completely after Charlie was born. This caused Problems(tm)

[cerkowah]

somebody described one of my posts as "biblically accurate willry"

[cerkowah]

it's been a while since I wrote an analytical text post but a joke conversation w my gf spurred on this train of thought and now I need to share it

I think WWDITS is fantastic queer rep, especially for bisexuality, and I need to point out an aspect of it I haven't seen talked about enough; Nandor's internalized homophobia.

now you may be thinking "Cerk that's ridiculous! He's said he's attracted to men and has canonically had sex with them! how can he be homophobic" but Listen. I largely credit OFMD for bringing my attention to how homophobia can be represented in ways outside of "I hate gay people they're evil" so check that out for more explicit examples of what I'm talking about but TLDR; Nandor has no problem having sexual relationships with the same gender, but he has issues with more intimate, romantic relationships.

Obviously his relationship with Guillermo is at the forefront here when it comes to this issue, and (fingers crossed) season 4 will bring his arc to its natural conclusion. There's not much to touch on from seasons 1 & 2, aside from his reluctance to get too close with Guillermo, but that could easily be attributed to his attachment issues as well as weird vampire/familiar rules. However fast forward to season 3, and it's clear theres more to it than that:

1. Guillermo isn't his familiar anymore (while yes his role in the group hasn't really changed all that much, the burden of the vampire/familiar title is gone)

2. we see he actually does get attached quite easily (Meg), and, with Gail, we see Guillermo's unreliable back-and-forth nature isn't actually a problem when it comes to Nandor developing (and acting on) his feelings

So, the previously-assumed reasons keeping Nandor from expressing his feelings are disproven. What else could it be?

I think the answer is clear; Nandor doesn't see another man as a suitable romantic partner. As a vampire, he's used to the idea of people being attracted to the same gender, but he hasn't quite shaken the idea that you can't fall in love that way. Through all of his romantic pursuits in season 3 he never once considers Guillermo as an option because that just isn't done. All of his prospective life partners have been women exclusively, and I can't imagine that being a coincidence. I think the writers even made an effort to show that Nandor's the only one who feels this way through Laszlo's feelings for Sean (which certainly go beyond lust). I know a lot of (mostly cishet) viewers are shocked at the idea of Nandor being anything but straight, and I think that's exactly the image he puts out into the world; a powerful, masculine man who never desires the tender touch of another man.

I could've done a whole nother post about how obvious his feelings for Guillermo are but at this point everybody knows. that man has it down BAD he just needs to get over his internal issues and let himself find some happiness with the person who's been by his side for over a decade

[cerkowah]

i love you characters with doomed revenge plots that destroy everything around them, i love you characters that betray their morals for their loved ones, i love you characters who love so much they lose all sense of self

I love you characters whose fatal flaw is loving too much

[cerkowah]

I need to draw more of the ultrakill robots.. generic enemies are so special to me

[cerkowah]

at that phase where I still enjoy fanart but I wanna do oc stuff so bad

the problem is I don't have the ocs I wanna draw yet. they're in my brain but they're not Ready

[cerkowah]

going a lil crazy over my current art class assignment. I think it'll be a big hit here

[cerkowah]

Of course season 4 wasn't gonna have nandermo get together even without Nandor's internalized homophobia or Guillermo's catholic guilt they are both So Fucking Stupid they're literally hopelessly in love with each other but constantly go "no he could never feel the same way" and it makes me LIVID but also I love it and I would gladly watch 10 seasons of them dancing around each other just for the emotional payoff of the finale kiss