(don't) bite the hand that feeds!
visions came to me while I was bored at church. more about that under the cut!
(sorry if the pose is confusing or the mustache looks weird, I had to use my own picture as a reference and I don't own a mustache so I was guessing half of it. also now that I'm looking at it I should've made graf more bloodied. hm)
So, about the visions! (all headcanons obvi, I'm behind on lore anyway because I don't have others' stream schedules memorised or in my routine and my streamer is on well deserved vacation!)
Even though q!Multi didn't save q!Graf from radiation poisoning like he did other people, namely q!Haiper, I would say he still considers himself Graf's saviour. Multi is convinced he saved Graf from corruption, from becoming a traitor to the whole cave and therefore himself too! He saved Graf by making him the obedient, helpful version of himself he was before he started interacting so much with people outside the Polski Cave. Yes, maybe the chip was a tech developed by the federation, but it was still Multi who put it in Graf, making it his gift to Graf. I very much think Multi would consider it a gift, a precious one too.
Multi is also obviously concerned about Graf's safety and well being. Even if his ways are twisted or a bit abusive, he still only means well. In Multi's head, Graf fighting against the chip is like a dog running out the house onto a busy street. I feel like going against Multi is just plainly stupid to him, so he'd probably be disappointed that Graf, who he considers a wise and intelligent man, is committing such obvious acts of foolishness like trying to get away from Multi and his grasp on Graf's mind. Multi, who thinks of himself as a God, probably considers his constant surveillance and harsh rules as a sign of being a loving god. And even loving gods make demands, right? so it's understandable multi might demand blind loyalty.
I don't think it's crazy to say that Multi might compare Graf to Nexe, reminding Graf that he's basically a worse and lesser dog of his than Nexe, because the latter actually recognizes Multi as a higher up and acts accordingly, unlike Graf. He'd prolly be pissed that Nexe called Graf his owner and not Multi tbh. Anyways! With how unstable Multi is I also don't think it's crazy to say he'd be capable of hurting those he cares about, especially if they go against him or his will specifically. Is it too far to say Multi wouldn't only hurt Graf for Graf's own wrongdoings, but also if he needed to let out his frustrations in general? Most of those instances aren't a full blown fist fight, he'd maybe squeeze Graf's hand so hard when he's stressing out over some research that the circulation cuts off; shake Graf's head by the hair with a little too much force when he's frustrated over things going wrong; dig his nails into Graf's skin when he maniacally stares into the witcher's eyes and talks about everyone betraying and losing trust in him, speaking so fast his lungs only barely keep up. But Multi isn't purely cruel, he's a loving god after all and Graf, even if a bad dog, is dear to him, so Multi would always make sure to shower Graf with affection and tell him how much Graf means to him. If the abuse was caused by something Graf himself did, like telling people about the chip or other secrets or trying to get rid of the chip (I absolutely adore the hc/vision of q!Graf being so desperate to get his own mind back he would try to dig the chip out. I think at first it was an absent minded thing rooted in his subconscious, like maybe he wouldn't try to dig it out but he'd absent mindedly scratch at it and touch his neck a lot. Once he finds out about the chip, I think his actions would get more and more erratic like from trying to scratch/pull it out to full blown micro operations on himself, trying to cut it out [too scared to ask someone else in case they would tell Multi ^^]) Multi would remind him the beatings were for his own good, while cuddling a bloodied and bruised Graf and whispering sweet nothings to him.
Q!Graf, in my opinion, is the self-proclaimed god's favourite play thing and his first creation. Damn now I'm thinking about Graf being Adam in the case of Multi being a god. because you know, the first man ever created, all in god's own image and purely out of love, deciding to go against one rule he was forbidden from breaking (does that make haiper eve? I have to decide that). anyways, to end things in some way, in my head q!multi thinks all things he does are out of love and/of concern, so seeing q!graf go against him is to him like having his hand bitten for trying to feed his dog. Q!Graf on the other hand knows that to allow someone to feed you is to allow them to imprison you, which is what he fears the most. back to the Adam thing, he may be promised eternal life in paradise if only he obeys, but knowing that he might be living in a lie and unawareness, missing out on a huge chunk of reality, is against his nature.
this was meant to be longer but I decided I'll save some aspects for future posts lol. I hope we get some juicy toxic lore when graf gets back from Spain (≖⩊≖)!!! Also because I've been told I should be a freak - I so so so need more people to write multilingual as a freakish mix of abuse, strong emotions and sexual arousal. I think there's one fic that talks about Q!graf being q!multi's dog, "two lab dogs" I believe is the title, and I neeeeeed more of that. I also think a lap dog is probably a good title/way to put what q!multi wants q!graf to be. again, with graf being his first big creation/project, I think multi would consider him like a showcase pet, something to brag about to others. in multi's perfect reality I think graf is just a pretty thing he can show off who also sometimes helps him out if asked. anyways I hope this is at least kinda cohesive and that you enjoyed!!!! love y'all!!! @milkwithalittlebitofmadness I summon you for some multilingual :P
