#chicorycore

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standing in front of a gaping hole. do not look too closely at the relationship all of my oc’s have with family

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rotating the ways my different dnd characters with deception proficiency/expertise lie. not actively lying but also doesn’t mean a solid 40% of the words he says. is lying but the lie comes more from the version of himself he is presenting to get what he wants than the things he is saying (though the things he’s saying can also be and often are lies, the performance of the false self is at least as important to the goal). is just a liar and at least a little manipulative and is on a constant level of performance but not one that’s really a lie, just a statement about the way the world is allowed to perceive him, maybe the most straightforward use of deception.

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chicory is not dumb. he’s got decent wisdom And his intelligence isn’t bad. he’s just under socialized and deeply strange so he comes off a little dumb

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accidentally thought abt my little dnd bird. you get far enough away from home to come back and let it back in but you still have to take home the person you are now that you’ve been gone. you still have to come home carrying the corpse of the boy who left. you still have to come home and look your mother in the eye and feel the weight of everyone you’ve killed with your hands or your inaction. you can tell your friend you can be brave for you both but you’re not brave you’re just running. you can tell your friend you’re not a good person and it’s true and maybe she’s the only one here who could get you and maybe you’ve fucked it too bad to ever really be friends to begin with. you’re just a little bird with a bow in a city you don’t know and you’re so scared but you know you have to do this because everyone else who’s doing it scares you worse than doing it yourself. you’re just a scared little bird but that fear is turning into anger and maybe you’re turning into something else and you don’t know if it’s better or worse yet but you hope it serves an end

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still not shutting up about chicory because i haven’t made an rp blog for my oc’s and i’m probably not going to for a minute! and that’s normally where i’d put this stuff. BUT i’m thinking abt the npc’s from his past and specifically the one that was killed and made him decide to be a ranger like,,,,, this person he’s grown up with who’s his best friend who he’s in love with, who made him brave. who was ALWAYS braver than he was and made him do things and go into the world, or as much of the world as they could and was never scared of the monsters in the dark. who was his other tether outside of his mother, his way of connecting and participating in their society. of being good and helpful. and when the monster comes he kills it because he’s already been training but not before there are casualties and the days come to pass and they bury them and he thinks about how he doesn’t know how to navigate this place anymore and. what if he hadn’t been here? what if he’d been protecting them from the outside, killing these things before they could ever become a threat? and he’s angry at himself and at a world that would make his people hide in these mountains where they are vulnerable and a pantheon that would steal their voices and he’s angry at the monsters in the dark. so he runs away. he runs away so he can do better.

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thinking about my dnd character tonight unfortunately. he’s hyper competent in one specific scenario and scared of almost everything outside of that setting. he is somewhat capable of one on one relationships but doesn’t know how to exist in society. he is not on his own list of priorities. he wants to kill god. he’s unaware of his own priorities beyond that. i basically took a barbarian and made him a ranger and i didn’t actually realize that until JUST now. the only two songs i relate to him are both by the front bottoms and it’s just the lines “say what you have to say/ try not to cry/ this is just not what you wanted/ at this point in your life/ and it’s so hard to stay when all you want to do is ride” and fucking “and maybe halfway through it has more to do with me killing him than it ever did protecting myself”. it’s worth noting his character build was me explicitly deciding i wanted to make an incredibly neurodivergent character and finding the best way to execute that.

anyway tell me about your player characters

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