#chrys complains

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bye i got reported for self harming AGAIN and this time its not even true 😭

i had to stay at the campus wellness center overnight and nobody even told me WHY i was there until like 20 minutes ago, AFTER they did a skin check only to find that i’m not actively harming myself

is this just gonna be my school experience. like every year im gonna be reported for self harm at some point. you gotta be kidding 😭😭😭

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was talking aloud in a group and i said the WORDS “panic attack” and this girl was like “UM. trigger warning, please.” girl what the fuck am i supposed to warn you for. out loud. the WORDS panic attack??? be serious

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my dad says im a failure heehee 🥰😘

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i think it should be like. considered morally wrong for school to be like this. it’s fucking 2:30 and i’m both trying to finish an essay due tomorrow and cram to study for a test tomorrow and i’m already exhausted because i had a long fucking day including a dress rehearsal, didnt even have time for dinner, fuck this

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hi. remember my ex best friend of 6 years who randomly disappeared, then the last i heard from him was him talking about hating me and me being toxic and abusive and a terrible friend with my other ex friends?

so i missed a call from him 10 fucking minutes ago. what the fuck. what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck.

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not me having the worst headache ive had in like 2 years snd having 2 chem quizzes to study for. i want to curl up in a ball in a dark room and writhe on the ground.

but i have to study chem.

the words are swimming and the room is wiggling and i kinda wanna hurl. but the show must go on :')

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genuinely fuck my life.

fun fact about me! i have narcolepsy right?

lots of things can trigger my sleep attacks or generally worsen them. one of those things is not getting a good night’s sleep.

yeah so last night? couldn’t fucking sleep. at all. tossing and turning all night. I HAVE SHIT TO DO TODAY. ????????? i hate it here. im like really fucking awake still but im gonna crash at some point and its gonna knock me out of commission and i have so much shit to do. i’m so frustrated.

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my mom is sooo pissed she cant hit me in public lmao. she just pinched me instead. the look on her face was hilarious. i just stared her down and didn’t flinch. i’m not scared of her anymore, i swear next time she hits me i’m gonna look her dead in the eye and just call her a bitch. no crying no flinching, no threatening to tell on her, i’m just gonna take it like a man. i’m not a kid anymore, i can handle some loser bitch who thinks she can push me around when i don’t bend to her every whim.