Man. I don't think I ever realized how much my behavior was a bother to others. I genuinely didn't think that's what I was doing. But now that I think about it, it's my fault, really. I know to not have expectations, and yet I do. The worst thing is not having the expectations though, the worst thing is that I'm probably ridiculed for having them. But I don't learn, do I? Why don't I? How I wish I was different. Maybe I can try to be different. It will be so difficult, but I will try. Hopefully I will get there. Or maybe start to move in the right direction at least.