#codex: anders

[iamcole]

Another Totally Canon Dragon Age Scene

Fenris: So, Anders-

Anders: Karl used to call me that...

Fenris: That's because it's your BLOODY NAME.

[kirkwallsreckoning-blog]

KIRKWALL: THE AFTERMATH

    It was a long time coming. If not Anders, then someone else. That's what Hawke tells himself, about Anders and the Chantry. On the good days, he believes it. On the bad ones, all he can think about is how he was too selfish to stop it. That he should have done something. That the people who died loved and were loved and they didn't have a choice. He remembers how it got bad, the descent into secrecy and how it seemed so far away, the end, until it wasn't.     He's never forgotten. Maybe one day, he'll forgive. It isn't his place to forgive Anders for what he did, to forgive him in place of the people who were lost and those who were left behind but maybe one day he'll forgive Anders for betraying him. His love, his trust. It seems so trivial now, after everything, and maybe it was stupid but he trusted Anders. He doesn't anymore. He loves him, and sometimes he wishes he didn't, but he doesn’t trust him. Maybe he never will.     That's the thing between them now. Not the body count or the politics. Anders loved him, he knows that. But Anders loved something else more and when he chose, ready to die for his cause, he didn't choose Hawke.