Man...
are you guys even looking?? the fucking police...i cant stand you guys...how can you call me in and tell me nothin?!?! no good news at all?
come on. seattle cant be that fucking huge you cant find him..
its at the point where im just fuckin angry and sad and worried and frustrated all in one..
i just want him home..
take me instead.....i can leave...but i just want him here with the fam..and people who care about him..i want him safe
just..please be safe...
whatever it is that happened....you can get through this...please just...dont give up and run away like this..you're hurting so many people right now you dont even know..
come back.. you know when there isnt anyone else you still have me
you know this...please dont feel alone..
i've been by your side for 11 years and im not about to run away..just let us be here for you...please..i dont like to beg but i will beg and beg until i die for you to come home..
i went to the station today....still nothing...if you dont want to come home...just tell me you're safe...thats all i need...just a simple hello will do...
i dont know how you can do this when physically you are in pain...
you know you have those painkillers and just...please dont do anything stupid..
please just...stay..you can not come home for as long as you want..but i need to know you're okay...there are so many things running through my mind right now...and im just thinking you've done something bad...something i know you'll grow to regret...
i mean...how can they still not find you? how?!?!
i know how hard it is for you...and i know you dont feel like i can help...or anyone else for that matter...but know im here...i never left and i wont..you can talk to me...you know this..
just dont do this...just be okay....if you wont stay safe for yourself do it for me..because i know you and how you put me before yourself...do it for me..please man please..just please be okay...
you dont know what you're doing to me
i cant eat
and i cant sleep
i cant do anything but wait by my phone like a fucking idiot...just waiting for you to say something...you can call and hang up..just anything..