Where do I go from here?
While many are telling me, they hate seeing me alone, with no one to seek attention from, I’m just wondering how pathetic I actually look in people’s eyes.
Things I wish people would understand; I may be alone but I am not lonely, because honestly I’m really used to having time alone. I may seem like I need replacement and companionship, but I honestly don’t like rushing into letting just anyone in. I’m selective, because too many have left.
Things I wish I understand; Why people leave me in the end, Why things always mess up even though I tried my best and gave my all, Am I ready to start anew, Am I healed, Or am I just refusing to pay attention to the wound?
And… how does it feel like to fall for someone again? How does it feel like to have someone you want to work hard for? How do I make myself feel like I deserve someone at this point, And how do I make myself feel like I’m good enough for someone?
-i.h