#complex friendship

[alphagaster]

Someone special <3

Sorry I've been catching up with real life lately

[nosferatuthegoth]

today I saw a friend I haven't seen in a while its been almost a year they haven't responded to my text, never responded to my calls. They looked like life was the absolute best ever and everything was ok. for the longest time I thought I had a crush on this friend (idk if I ever did) and would always get jealous of their other friends ( I don't know why) I thought we were close ( we weren't) and when they didn't respond I was really sad I thought I had lost them forever I thought I had lost all my friends forever and then I decided to start over make new friends try to make the most of life and I was doing ok and then I saw them today and we talked and they acted like this was just another Wednesday for them when it feels like my life has been turned sideways I thought they had abandoned us (me and another friend) but they were just busy but like I always felt like it was us against the world for the longest time and I would have tried to text them if I was busy if I had been grounded I would have always tried to find time and I don't know I feel a bit broken like something inside me has cracked I feel like I am grasping at straws I know I am. for the longest time I would have done anything for them and I know for a fact that they would had never done the same but it still hurts why did I have to see them I wish I never did