Jul 6, 2016
Dying to know,afraid to find out
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Dying to know,afraid to find out
When we're together
All I do is think about the feelings I hide
I thought we were on the same page,but I guess we were reading different books
A lot of people links us together but all I did was deny it,I bet he did the same.I tries to stop these feelings because one of my friends liked him,and they became close to each other(actually most of the girls linked to him is close to me so I know their stories)
I know that we're not meant to be,because if we are then why would the world separate our ways.But a part of me wishes that we are,a part of me still has a tiny light of hope that we are.That in time,we'll find a way back.But that will only happen if he feels the same way.I always wonder if he does. I’ve known him for four years now,I’ve herd the stories directly from the mouth of the girls who were linked to him.I haven’t found out how he sees me.All I know is how I see him. I wish this heart would quit playing games with me.
I kept on asking myself sometimes when a new girl confessed her feelings for him.My mind whispers "why do they even like him?" But now I totally understand why.now,im one of those people who fell for him This is so ironic.but i have no plans of confessing,that somehow came to my mind but I really cant,maybe at the end of the year? We'll never know. I just want to treasure these moments now,the last year.
I’ve tried a lot of times to convince myself that I am just overwhelmed by his presence.That these feelings are only because we're close,because we're always spending time together,laughing at other things.But now I cant even see him like the way I saw him the first day we met.I can’t look at him and say to myself that "no,we're just friends" I don’t want to ruin our friendship so sometimes I try to evade him.I don’t know why.I know that doing this cant stop my feelings toward him but I still do it anyway.Right now I’m just so confused.is this now for real? Or am I just confused again with my feelings ? I wish I’d know the answer before it's too late.
Uh wait,it already is.
All these years I've been pushing myself into liking someone. I've been fooling my heart into beating for someone. But now,I realized this heart,is beating for only one. The one who's been there through it all. I’ve already met him but I didn’t even realize because I was busy looking to someone else.the person I've been looking for is just there at the picture. I just didnt take the effort to put my eyes on this side of the photo.He's been there since three years ago.But now,he slowly fades away.
It's too late.I know it is.I just do.