conjuringseed said: i genuinely cannot believe that, back before i smoked, i simply carried on w life without sleep for two to five days @ a time. it was horrible, & i don’t understand how anyone could argue it’s preferable for me to endure THAT than be stoned all the time. trust me, not sleeping puts one in a MUCH stronger altered state than smoking : /
I don’t know what it’s like to live with insomnia, but I definitely can see where you are coming from. For me, it is the opposite. I would rather sleep my life away (and do) my whole life than be awake and feel extreme major depression to where I am so depressed I feel nothing at all. At least with mj I could live a functional life in which I (although bed ridden) could do what work I need to do (I am a writer by trade) on my computer, and smoke to cope with the major depression I deal with on a daily basis. Without it, I am completely un-functioning, dead-brained with no creativity, and longing (literally) for death or unbeing.
The other day I was in the bath and contemplated drowning myself. It is not my first suicidal thought, definitely. But it has been my first in two years, and I know, without a doubt, that bud alleviated me of that for a long time now.
