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Oh hey, you guys wanna see the back-of-book summary of Control?

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I DID IT!!!

Control has hit the 50K mark. This is not the end of the draft, nor is the story even done after this book...but that’s news for another day. For now, I am going to rest and relax a bit!

@vo-kopen​ @thefingerfuckingfemalefury​

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HAVE I MENTIONED IM DOING A LOT OF SOUL SEARCHING TODAY!?!?!?! I owe so fucking much to everyone here on tumblr who has supported me and encouraged me over the last 2 years. I wish I could tag every single person who had an affect--from the very beginning when I was writing Born to Run, to now, as I'm working to publish my very first novel.

I never thought I had it in me to write ANYTHING, but over the last 2 years I've proven myself wrong again and again. I had an endless well of stories in me, and apparently I just had to find it.

Thank you so fucking much to everyone on here. If we've interacted AT ALL, no matter how small, no matter how long ago, please know that you've affected me and I haven't forgotten any of it.

I love you all--and please don't forget to come yell at me about Control after you finish it 😉

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Control Signed Copies

Hi friends!

Signed copies of Control are now available in my very own Etsy Store!

Order a copy, and you'll not only get my scribbling on the inside cover, but you'll also receive...

 An optional personalized message

A Control bookmark designed by yours truly with a quote from the book

Two unique stickers of famous paintings (each package will be different!)

A secret fourth thing ;)

I still can't believe the reception this book has had. Seriously, thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I never imagined that signed copies would be something people wanted, yet here they are! I cannot thank you enough <3 <3

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AO3 is still down, so might I suggest a little light reading if you're craving that smutty fanfiction feel, but in convenient book form?

Buy it on paperback or ebook HERE

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What is your fave smut scene in Control?

Excuse me???

You come into MY INBOX and ask me, of all the disgusting, depraved, obscene parts of Control, to somehow pick a FAVORITE?

Do we ask parents which child is their favorite??

Do we ask multiple pet owners which animal is their favorite???

DO WE ASK---

Oh wait no, sorry--I do have a favorite, I always have, and that favorite is, if you long-time readers remember the original chapter titles, the scene from "Tied."

For those who've forgotten or are new to the story, here's a little snippet of said chapter under the cut!

“Don’t give me that look, my love. You’re in this position because of you,” he says with a smirk.

“I’m sorry,” I say petulantly. To be fair, my tone isn’t exactly as apologetic as it had been last night, but I’ve also been tied to a bed for a few hours now, and I’m irritable. “How long are you going to keep me like this?”

“You don’t need to worry about that,” Noah tells me lightly. “I’m in control here, not you.”

It’s always a battle of wills, at first—I have to push, it’s in my nature. We both know that eventually, he’ll break me. He always does. But it makes it more satisfying, more of a release, when I fight him first. It’s a little game—Noah tries to see how quickly he can get me to surrender, while I fight tooth and nail for every last second until I eventually give in.

“You must be hungry,” Noah coos, holding out a little bowl of fruit. “Would you like some?”

I glare at him. Case in point: I refuse to give up this last little bit of autonomy just to be difficult, and Noah will push and push until the thin layer of control I’m trying to exert collapses like a house of cards.

“I’m not,” I say flatly, although the assortment of plump berries is making my mouth water.

“You’re trying awfully hard to convince me that you don’t like this, but I can see the truth from here, sweetheart.”

I flush. I’m also not wearing any clothes, since Noah prefers me to sleep naked. He’s right—I can feel the wetness on my thighs that betrays my bratty attitude.

“If you’re not hungry, I can come back later. See how ready you are to behave for me then.”

“Whatever,” I mumble as Noah heads back out of the room.

“Color?” he asks when he gets to the doorway, breaking the façade for a moment.

I drop my gaze in humiliation. “Green,” I whisper. I don’t want to admit how wet this gets me, how much it turns me on.

Noah smiles. “That’s what I thought.” He winks at me, and I bite back a frustrated growl, slumping back down on the bed.

It must be closer to mid-morning, by the way the sun hits the windows, when my dozing is interrupted again by a soft sentence spoken from our bedroom doorway. I have no idea what time it actually is—there’s no clock in this room, and my phone is out of reach.

“Hello, my love.”

Noah’s lilt is gentle, teasing. I know this game: he’s wearing me down slowly, getting me to that space where I’m pliant and submissive and desperate for him. I smile, in spite of myself. He’s very good at it. “We’re looking a little less defiant, now, aren’t we?” he teases.

“Maybe, Sir,” I reply. Truthfully, I’m not really sure how I feel, right now. "I am a little hungry," I admit quietly.

Noah smiles triumphantly.

“See? So much easier if you give in,” he teases. “On your knees.”

I begrudgingly obey, moving from being slumped awkwardly against the headboard with my hands bound behind me to sitting on my knees as Noah had asked.

I justify my obedience to myself by saying it’s only to get the food. After that, I’ll go back to being defiant.

It doesn’t even sound convincing in my head.

Noah joins me on the bed and pops a blueberry into my mouth, letting his finger pull my lower lip down as he feeds it to me. He continues feeding me the berries until the bowl is empty.

“Isn’t that better?” Noah teases, condescendingly patting my cheek. When I don’t respond, he gently takes hold of my chin. “Isn’t it?” he repeats, more firmly.

“Yes, Sir.”

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Just a reminder that Control launches in 2 weeks to the day 👀

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This from Control always kills me 🥵

You come into MY ASKS and force me to read MY OWN FILTH in a book that I've PUBLISHED.

Lmao this chapter is the absolute most, babe, you're right XD