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Old-ish ideas

[ofrealstrength-blog]

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okay so...villains. this doesn’t apply to the su fandom quite as much because most of the antagonists aren’t necessarily totally evil and are redeemable - and they’re meant to be. they’re portrayed as products of their environment, place them in a new environment and they’ll change, that’s cool. just wanted to preface that i’m not writing this about anyone currently following me who writes a character who could be considered villainous.

(tbh i’m writing it about people i’ve seen in the lotr fandom where i have my legolas blog aha)

ANYWAY. when you have a villain who’s really evil. genuinely, wants to rule the world and crush everything evil. when every attempt in canon to punish them or redeem them has failed. yeah, if you’re gonna play that character...can you not play them as some woobie misunderstood person who can be redeemed with, like, a few hugs? i’ll get excited to see a villain rp blog and then see a bunch of fluff and redemption and “oh sure they’ll cut your guts out but they’ll be cute about it”...idek

i just want to rp with villains who are actually evil. unapologetically terrifying. if you’re going to take up the mantle of playing the dark lord of everything or whatever, let him be evil. there’s so much potential!! there’s so much potential for beautiful, dark writing, for character exploration into why he is the way he is, and sure, give him a redemption verse, but let it happen slowly and agonizingly, let him be irredeemably flawed - don’t turn him into total fluff material

idk if this even makes sense but i just cry at the opportunities wasted for truly evil characters to shine through in rp

(also when villain blogs become like..90% ships? why? why is there all this tucking into bed. where is my psychological torture)

[calamitouscyan]

LOL IM KIDDING. write a meta on self worth?

「WERE U REALLY, LAINA? ARE U SURE???」

Make me blab about my muse more than I should | Slowly Accepting!

　Speaking about Yato’s sense of self-worth is a… very difficult topic.

　His self-esteem is clearly not in the healthiest state—specially if we’re talking about his past-self’s, with Father’s opinion having a bigger role in Yato’s vision of himself and no one to really tell him otherwise.

　It isn’t, though, in a life-threatening level; while he’d probably questioned more than once about his self-worth and the real meaning of his existence, he’d never particularly considered ending it—possibly due to a general fear for ceasing to exist at all or, on the other hand, partly because of the fact that he doesn’t approve said methods for dealing with hard times, in regard for those who kept a will to live during their decease.

 　So… does he hate himself or not? It isn’t a question with a “black or white” answer, but rather hovers in the gray shades (albeit not in a very healthy side of it).

　Most of Yaboku’s self-abhorrence was instigated by Father, to say the least. He doesn’t place himself into any better scale than most of the criminals he kills. “He’s just a brute who only knows how to cut stuff” is how he (and Father) define himself often, even though it’s clear he’s talented in many other different things unrelated to violence or fight (likely self-taught, due to a lack of support coming from his parental figure). Yet still, that’s all he deems himself worth of: fighting and killing, bringing calamity to everyone.

　He does grow to like himself a little better in the future, though—to the point of at times showing a bit of an egotistical attitude. Even if the influence of Father in his opinion of himself is still rather strong, he does have a brighter vision for the future; trusts himself enough to become something better, and it’s only indulged further by Hiyori’s constant support and Yukine’s promise to help him on this.

　In his past though, he didn’t particularly have much support—the closest to it likely being Kofuku and Daikoku, but sadly even they don’t really play a big part on supporting his self-esteem—so his sense of self-worth was even lower, and thus was he easier to not only demoralize, but also manipulate by Father’s “praise and punishment” game.

tl;dr: Past Yato dislikes himself way more than does his future self, but still not enough for him to consider self-destruction as a course of action.

[bleurine-blog]

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 petite , slender hands coil around a thin sheet of fabric that canopied her majesty’s court ;  offering a ripe apologetic smile to the freshly liberated gem .

 ❝ lapis lazuli , i have just received news that my diamond won’t be attending any meetings   today . what might you be here for ? ❞