NaNoWriMo indecisivity...
Indecisivity should be a real word, given it describes a state plenty of us live in when trying to write.
Anyhoo, morning musings ahead.
This year, I’m more of a NaNoWriMo little leaguer than a professional competitor. I can occasionally be goaded to walk up and take a swing with my wiffle bat, but it’s more likely I’ll be daydreaming behind the bleachers than showing up for practice.
Which is okay. While I’m part panster, from personal experience, I know I need some degree of preparation before writing anything large-scale or I wind up slathering and twitching by page 10.
Having done absolutely zilch to incubate and explore new ideas as of late, November seems better dedicated to getting me in the swing of things. I think I can make any month my personal Write a Novel Now, You Lazy Chickpea! challenge, and it would work almost — if not just — as well as NaNoWriMo. I can Richard Simmons myself into action.
But for now, I really need to rediscover my old habit of writing daily.
The thing is, I’m obsessing so much over a course of action that I’m wasting time and energy which should be directed at ... well, frackin’ writing.
Do I write new fanfic? Or try fanfic for a fandom I’m more suited for? Do I try to finish the landfill of half-written fanfics that were never completed? Do I write original bits of whatever comes to mind? I know people who are each pursuing one of these goals, so it feels weird to be wiggling solo through a mucky mix of the three.