If anything good has come of this job hunt is that for phone calls at least I activate like a sleeper agent into a very pleasant conversationalist. Hiring managers love me now. I am somehow tripping into accounting interviews with an abysmal understanding of math and no degree.
In all other aspects my mental health is dog shit aside from a few good days
In other news I've been married for a year! The bridal shower was amazing and I feel so loved and connected to my friends! I need to reach out and socialize and keep that up. I went home and cried because I felt so loved and then cried again because people got me kitchen stuff that helps my joint pain by reducing the physical load.
I am also looking into volunteering because I want to be useful and helpful especially in times like this but the social anxiety makes it hard to pull the trigger