Anger flashed through her. Everything was going wrong. She hadn’t been able to talk to Jason, and avoiding Camila and Abraham was taking a toll on her emotionally. She had wanted to reach out to them, but then there had been the solstice, and then the David reveal, and recently the ice maze bullshit. Iris just wanted this to be over. There were too many twists and turns in this thrice damned Forest, too many ways for the Pack to get hurt and to be pulled apart and ripped to shreds and goddamnit, all she had wanted was a home. Why was the universe so intent on not allowing her that one small concession? Iris shook her head. The universe owes nothing to anybody. But Jason and Camila deserved it. Abraham deserved it. The rest of the Pack deserved it. And anyways, just when she had thought she was getting over a certain Guardian, he had begun occupying her thoughts once more. Her forced estrangement from the ones closest to her definitely weren’t helping matters, that was for sure. And she still hadn’t made a fucking decision. Iris continued punching the plank of wood in front of her, her pace and speed quickly rising. She just kept going, and going, and going, and going, and— shit.
She stumbled off balance as her fist swung through the air, the expected sound of flesh against wood never arriving. Iris blinked. The plank of wood wasn’t there anymore. It had fallen. Oh. Time stood still as the small clearing went quiet, the birds having flown away long ago. The ringing silence was only broken by a loud gasp as Iris tried to control her breathing, control her emotions, control. She slowly bent down, replacing the plank of wood before continuing once more. She needed to control herself. She slowly restarted her exercises. Kick, punch, duck, spin, punch, punch, kick, spin, kick. Another’s presence was felt at the edges of her awareness, but Iris ignored that in favor of continuing. the. punch. kick. spin. Control. Regain it. Blank face. Movements precise. Mind aware. Do not falter. She can not falter.