Apr 19, 2023
bro
#crying. atm.#believe it or not i’ve calmed down significantly from how i was a bit ago 🤪#literally genuinely had a full blown mental breakdown on my bathroom floor we’re talking scream crying on my hands and knees#how embarrassing..#still crying like. actively#idk#idk idk idk !!!!! fuck !!#im so genuniely distraught#cause like. i’m never gonna be pretty. ever . and it’s tearing me apart#the one thing i want more than ANYTHING in the world and i’m just never gonna have that#i will never be pretty#i hate how i look so so so so much it’s embarrassing#i can’t even stand to look in a mirror most days#i see my reflection in a window and want to die#and every time i calm down a little i am forced to see my own body#just by the sheer unfortunate fact that it is mine#and i start crying all over again#like idk what to do how am i even supposed to go on#never being pretty? ever ??? when that’s LITERALLY all i want#i’ve never felt this bad about myself ever in my entire life#i feel like shit like actual shit#i hate this body so so much#there is nothing good about it#it doesn’t even function well#and i just don’t understand why this had to be me#i know SOMEONE had to be the most unflattering person in the room at all times#but what the fuck did i do to deserve it being me#i just don’t understand#and idk what to do. how do i go on#i seriously seriously just wanna die