27. things you said with tears in your eyes
𝐋𝐘𝐃𝐈𝐀 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐈𝐍 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐍 . not here , not right now . she is a dull ache to her chest , the stone in throat feeling you get right before you burst into tears . lashline burns , something warm and wet and hurt slipping down the smooth curve of her cheek . god , god — lydia does not want to be like this , ( a hurt thing ) . something to be looked after .
she looks away from him , presses knuckles hastily beneath her eye to catch a stray drop . can’t , of course , rub — mascara . ❛ i don’t — i don’t want to talk about it . ❜ because she doesn’t . she doesn’t . emmett looks one more hiccuped cry away from losing it , and she wants him to stop looking at her , but he doesn’t . oddly , oddly , she feels ( so very bare ) . ❛ i’m fine , god , this is so stupid . it’s nothing . ❜ except that it is something , like a hurting inside of her . some kind of rot . emmett looks at lydia like he does not quite know what to do with her and it almost makes it worse , but she startles out a laugh , instead . ❛ why — why are you looking at me like that ? i’m f - fine . i’ll be fine in a minute , just — ❜ lip wobbles . lydia feels a fresh wave of tears . ❛ i’ll fix my makeup in a minute . but can you just — let me cry and not say anything ? i just need . a minute . ❜
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