To Kim Jonghyun,
I miss you a lot. It's going to be a year soon and it still hasn't become easier to breathe or listen to your voice. It has become harder. I listen your Albums and cry like a baby, I listen to you with shinee and my heart aches more. I listen to Replay and my heart breaks a hundred times over. It makes me sad that what used to warm my heart with happiness and joy brings me so much sadness and pain now. I listen to it when I can. I try to avoid it, sometimes even looking at pictures it hurts. But I miss your voice and your personality your beautiful face and all of you. You always brought me comfort and you still do in a way. It's just different now. I love you very much. I think about you almost every day. I'm going through some stuff I wish I were in a position to listen or watch you right now. I tried , I watched one video and somehow i always end up at the video in where you hug every single member at the dome. And then, I want to be them . I wish I would've hugged you once in my arms. I miss baby, I love you very much. Kim Jonghyun. ♡